Ben.

It's so cold, but I can't bring myself to do anything about it. All I can do is sit here with my face buried in my knees, as the freezing cold water runs over my head, and down my spine. It was the third time this had happened this week, and I don't know why. I just sit here. For about an hour or two at a time. I'm pretty sure one day I'll end up getting pneumonia, but that's the least of my worries at the moment.

  Why am I like this? Why am I always so sad all the damn time? I stopped therapy a few weeks ago, it wasn't helping and I absolutely hated sitting there just saying yes or no and "I'm not sure" or "not really" I wasn't really getting the best help, and because I barely said anything, they weren't going to give me any medication of any sorts to give me a more of a push. Things just kept getting worse and worse, and I've found myself being down even in the happiest of times, and sometimes just because. There's never been any real reason to be sad lately. I'm just sad. All the time. There's nothing anyone can do about it, not even myself.

I finally managed to get myself to turn off the shower, and get out of the bath. I grab the towel, and as I wipe the tears from my face and dry my hair, I hear my parents walk in the door. They can't see me like this. They weren't supposed to be home until tonight.
As fear crept in on me quickly, I wrapped my towel around me and kept my arms close to my body as I walked to my room as fast as I could without slipping.
'Ben?! Is that you?!'
"Yes mum! I've just gotten out of the shower, give me a minute to get dressed!". 
I wish she had told me that they were going to be home earlier. Maybe I would have been more careful. Maybe.
Oh well, I'll figure something out. Right now I better just get dressed and see what she wants.

"Mum? What is it that you wanted me for?" I said racing down the stairs, "I'm going to Jack's house soon, we've got the history thing due on Tuesday, remember? I best be going soon." (That was a lie, it was due yesterday and we had already handed it in beforehand. I was just going there to play video games. Since mum took my PlayStation.)
"Oh yes, sorry Ben. I just wanted to remind you to do your laundry tonight, and your father and I are going to be away for the weekend. You've got the house to yourself, but no parties. No one is to step through that door unless your sister comes home or if Jack wants to stay, you call us first."
"Yes mum. I know. Can I leave now?"
"Alright, have a good day Benny."
Phew. She didn't question anything.

I grabbed my skateboard and headed off to Jack's. He didn't live to far, just a couple blocks over. I don't particularly like the route I had to follow to get there, but I don't really have any other transport. My mum never leaves enough money for Taxis or buses.