Caspar Lee imagines

I'm straight... I think...

I think I'm straight. I've been questioning this ever since I met Joe sugg. Considering he's quite muscular and has a gorgeous face. He's nice to look at. Considering ive never dated a boy. Or ever thought of a other boy like this. Not a sexual way. But different. Kind of like a childhood crush were you dont want to tell your friends because there blabber and judge you. I wouldnt be able to tell because all of my 'gay' friends dont live in this country. Like Tyler and Troye. So I'm trapped in this whirl pool of emotions. Not understanding my sexuality is tricky. I've seen Joe butt naked. Im not really that comfortable with people seeing me naked.

so anyway. Me and Joe went out for some drinks and clubbing last week when my crush really sneaked out. I was drunk. Me and Joe had both bought girls back for a one night stand when I was making out with the gurl she was giving me live bites when I moaned out Joe. Big fucking mistake. This bitch bell banged me, slammed my door and destroyed my favourite lamp in less than 30 seconds. Then dented the front door. I didn't mean to I did I unconsciously because I've had dreams about Joe and all that crap. I have to speak to someone. About my sexuality of course. Not really about Joe... Yeah really about Joe... Because were only friends right. Friends dont like friends that way do they...? Well thats basically friend zone... This is getting way deeper then I expected..

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"Joe ima watch a movie" I call down to him.

"Okay. Is that a invitation?" He says plodding up the stairs.

"Yes! Come on I'm going to watch a Micheal Macintyre"

"he's great I love him" Oh lucky Micheal then isn't he I feel like saying to Joe.

I turn Netflix on and find it press play. About into 40 minutes of the program Joe is leaning on my shoulder asleep. I straighten him out across the sofa and put my legs next to his. Kiss his head and say goodnight and press the off button on the tv. The room is quiet. I can hear me and Joe sharing the same breath. I pull a small blanket from under the sofa around us. Me and Joe in our little cuddle land.

~~ 4 MONTHS LATER ~~

me and Joe have kisses. I have came out as gay. Me and Joe made a coming out video together. Made our own channel called it 'AOverLoadOfJaspar' and up date Tuesdays and Sundays. Zoe, Oli, will, alfie and Marcus have supported me. As well as Tyler and troye. I'm happy Joes happy. Everton was finally happy including me. I'm not comfortable with my sexuality...

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