Cutts

2 and a half years later

2 and a half years later I found myself living a normal life ,well at least that's what I thought until two girls started bullying me and my friends, it wasn't the fact that they bullied me why I felt so down .I felt like that because while you feel fat and feel like the whole world rotates around you you feel left out but for 2 and a half years there was always my best friend who always stood around me and always kept me company . She promised she would never be friends with my buly ,but that was exactly what she did ,she didn't just stab me in the back like other people do she stabbed me in heart when I didn't even saw it coming . I asked her to pick and she clearly picked her over me . That day I found myself impacted by the way she just turned her back on me when I most needed her . And with so much pressure in my mind and in heart I took a Gillette and cut my self 5 times ,in a way it did make me feel better why because I thought that if she broke her promise I should break every promise and bond because there was nobody who could control me at that time I deleted everything and left her in the past and ounce again I felt like life was choking me and in the worst way and all these memories stated flying in my brain like when I promised her I would never cut myself again ,we'll if it's any body's fault it's hers for leaving so much damage in me and she knew exactly what was my weakness and may she forever live with the conscuis  that it was her fault a week later my friends told me to calm down we always have these mini fights and that they always fade ,and I told them" not this time some things change and this was one of them" ,that day I logged in my face do ok and my bully tagged her in a pic that she uploaded of there messeging and seeing as how she wrot what she never wrote to me . She was now friends with someone she onley knew for one year and a half ,and the funny part Is that she never posted a pic with me but of course with her new best friend they did every thing .after a week my uncle hosted a party and I saw her on top of her ex boyfriend and thought what a hoe I can't belive she was my friend clearly I'm not worthy of such influence and as soon as she saw me she got down and left I was happy but sad ,I had nobody's company and felt totlay alone and it was like 3 a.m in the morning