Hope.

I knew something.

Something that I wished I never knew.This thing haunts me.Knowing  I lost this something.And I can never get it back.

I knew I lost him.I just had a small amount of hope that one day I would wake up and he would be there.But he never showed up.I know now.I know I should have done something. Took him away from those 'friends' before he got hurt.That's the thing.I didn't. Now I have to pay the price.

The pain is extraordinary.It's like words pass me Of coarse I never wanted to admit it but..Honestly I loved the guy.He was the class clown.The guy that even if you wanted to go into a dark room and sit in the corner and cry would cheer you up.

Yet when that ones gone you have no other ways to cheer yourself up.being in his arms made me feel safe.Hearing his voice gave me a sense of comfort and  I hear nothing but silence.

Maybe there was hope out there.Maybe there was someone who could make you laugh in the toughest of times.For me that person was gone and no where to be seen.

 All my hope is forever gone.

~200 words~