Deceptions of The Heart. BoyxBoy

Oh goshhh, I've had this first chapter to this story in my 'My Works' section for a while now and thought it was about time I gave you guys something to read  :D  I have no idea where this idea came from, I hope it turns out to be an amazing story ^^. Alright ENJOY!~  BOYXBOY!!! <3333 I put a lot of thought into this so yeah I really do hope you guys enjoy this one. I know you guys want I'm Nothing Without You and No Longer Alone, I've already started writing No Longer Alone....I just need to figure out what to write with I'm Nothing Without You, I just couldn't wait for this one :DDD <333. Enjoy you beautiful people :)

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Such an unwanted feeling, that feeling we call pain, but yet its still there. You can wish it to go away or even pray that when you wake up it'll be replaced with an overwhelming feeling of pure bliss. But to your surprise, note the sarcasm, it's still their eating away at your soul. You can't just will it all to go away, no it'll go away on its own terms. Only then will it go away, not when you beg and beg.

It gnaws at your insides making you want to die, it hurts that much. You sometimes think death would be the best thing for you, wayy better than feeling this feeling for the rest of your life, right?

All you want to do is cry and cry but the tears won't fall, you wonder why? Why me? Why must I go through this torture? Why can't it just go away? What did I do to deserve this?

That's when you look forward to falling asleep, knowing that when you are asleep that's when you can escape it, no such luck. It haunts your dreams every night, shoving it in your face that you will wake up in pure agony. You can run but you can't hide.

On those rare occassions that you feel as if you're going to have an "okay" day. A picture, a place, a memory, a dream, maybe everything reminds you and thats when the pain takes over again, suffocating you until you can no longer breath.

It eats away at you so much that you sometimes feel as if you are going to go insane, sometimes you ACTUALLY do go insane.

It takes over you; your life, your actions, the way you think about things, and you can't control it. Pain it's always there, wether you will it or not. I would know, I live through this agonizing pain every single day. Ever since that day eleven months ago, that day everything changed. No obviously not for the better, but for the worse.

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"Dakota, did you hear me babe?" I heard Faith say on the other line.

"Hm? No, sorry...say that again?" Its kind of hard trying to do two things at once with me, I was trying to talk on the phone while trying to get out of work. Bad combination.

Letting out an annoyed sigh she repeated, "I said, we should go to the movies tonight."

"The movies?" Questioning her while looking around the shop to see if everything was in order, noticing that everything was I grabbed my stuff and headed out locking the door behind me. 

"No I just said, we should go to the movies but meant lets go to the circus."  She said sarcastically as the darkness sorrounded me.

"Sorry Faith, you know I don't do movies anymore."