I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

1 - Counting The Stars And Scars... How I'm Becoming A Work Of Art

1 - Counting The Stars And Scars... How I'm Becoming A Work Of Art
Pierce The Veil - The Divine Zero

I stare at myself in the mirror and what I see disgusts me. There's too much fat on my thighs and stomach. You can't see my cheekbones because my cheeks are too fat, nor can you see my collarbones and hipbones. Lines of red cover my hips and the tops of my thighs.
I quickly throw on my clothes to cover up my imperfections - that's what we will call them. Imperfections. I lay down on my bed and start to play Pierce The Veil. Not long until I see them live. Not long until I can escape from my own mind, even if it is only for a few hours. 'May These Noises Startle You In Your Sleep' starts to find its way out of my speakers and flows into my ears, I close my eyes and take in the noises.

Oh, who am I, you ask? I'm May Thomas, I'm 18, trying to find an apartment I can afford, but at the moment I'm paying rent at my parents house. I'm into mainly rock and alternative music genres and I hate almost everything that's in the charts... I'm kind of a mix of emo, scene, pastel goth and stuff like that. It depends on how I'm feeling on the day. I just try my best to not be the same as everyone else. Who would want to be a copy of the person right next to you?
In conclusion, I'm May and I'm really not that special. Different, yes. Special, no.

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"TURN THAT SHIT OFF!" My mum yells from downstairs, 'King For A Day' is currently blasting, so I turn it up louder and drown out her protests. One day. I can hold out one day, then I'll be going to my safe haven. Also known as a concert.

My phone goes off and I go to see who's texted me. It's from Luke, aka one of the best people ever.

L: Hey loser, Violet and I are coming over ;)
M: Mmmmkay assbutt.
L: Assbutt?
M: That's one of the best SPN insults and don't you deny it.
L: Okaay, we are leaving now, be there in 5
M: Byeee.

I quickly do my hair and throw on some darker skinny jeans. I hear a knock on the door and my mum answering it, not long after I hear what sounds like a herd of elephants running up the stairs and soon the two idiots I have the pleasure to call my best friends tumblr through the door.

"HELLO FOTHERMUCKERS!" I shout, a grin plastered onto my face. I sit in my spinny chair as Luke flops onto my bed and Violet sits on the floor.
"You okay?" I ask, looking over to Luke and Violet. Luke says yes at the same time as Violet says no. I raise my eyebrow in confusion. Luke sighs an exasperated sigh.
"We can't go to the collide with the sky tour, our parents won't let us go..." Luke trails off.
"Oh okay, dude, don't worry about it." I smile and they both smile back, we start jamming out to my playlist of PTV, OM&M, SWS, MCR *cries*, ADTR, ATL, FOB, P!ATD, TØP, Royal Blood and 5SOS. What? We like 5SOS get the fuck over it or get the fuck out.

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Luke and Violet left after a while and I went to sleep early because I have to wake up super early so as I can get to the front of the concert. Before I could drift off to sleep, I got a text from Luke.

L: HOLY FUCKING SHIT!
M: WHAT?!
L: MY MUM GOT ME TICKETS. THATS WHY SHE SAID I COULDN'T GO, BECAUSE SHE ALREADY GOT ME TICKETS!!!
M: HOLY SHIT YAAAASSS!!
L: I'll come to yours in the morning, 7?
M: Sure, make sure you're ready though. We are leaving at 7:30 so we can get to the front.
L: I will, I will
M: I'm gonna sleep now, love ya, see you tomorrow.
L: Night, love you too

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So, I hope you like the story so far... I'll try to make chapters a little longer if I can, I hope this didn't suck.

Xoxo, Erin.