Only you (A ThatcherJoe/ Youtuber fanfic)

Chapter 13

Jim's POV:

I watched as Joe shook his head at Tan so I shot her a puzzled look. "Me and Jim are just going to step outside a minute. Leave you alone." We stepped outside and she sighed. "Tan what's going on? Why did he shake his head? Is everything okay?" I was now slightly on edge and Tan could tell. She took my hand and spoke "Well. Before the panic attack, Joe poured his heart out to us. He told us everything." "What do you mean everything?" "Well... what he told Zoe was true but there's more to it. Something about going out with Charlotte, Caspar's cousin and cheating on her. He blames himself for her losing her memory in her car crash a couple of months ago and Zoe never knew about them. They wanted to wait until the time was right." "Oh yeah, I remember Charlotte, she's really nice."

"So he shook his head so I knew not to say anything I guess." I took her into my arms and we stayed there for what seemed like forever. "Hmm. I like this. I still can't believe we're engaged." Tan admitted. "It was always going to happen baby. And i'm so happy I did."

Joe's POV:

"Joe? Why would they hate you?" She was now almost shouting at me for an answer. "Just something happened and it doesn't matter." I lied. "I'm going to speak to them. Please don't do anything else stupid Joe."

*The next day*

I woke up still in the hospital. I was being discharged today. They wanted someone to stay with me, to keep an eye on me and make sure I didn't try again, at least until I was 'better'. That was the only condition of my release so Zoe offered to stay and I knew Alfie wouldn't be happy about it.

They finally discharged me and Zoe picked me up and took me back to the flat. Marcus said he'd be round later with Niomi as Zoe and her were going to film together. We got to the flat and I went straight to my room and cried. Why did they save me? Why was I still here? They wouldn't miss me? What's the point? I stayed there for hours until I heard a knock on the door and Zoe went to get it. I stayed in the bedroom and soon enough had the others in there too. Just talking. "You okay Joe?" Marcus asked and I shook my head. "Can I talk to Marcus alone guys?" I asked and they nodded. "Joe you need to take your meds in 10." Zoe reminded me and I simply sighed. "What happened? Zoe told me about you being in hospital."

"I tried to kill myself Marcus. I couldn't take it but there's something that Zoe doesn't know. Anyway, they put me on these stupid anti-depressants that aren't going to work." "They take time Joe. Wanna talk about it?" I shook my head and he just nodded.

Zoe's POV:

"I don't know what to do Niomi." I cried. "I'm sure it'll work out. Alfie and Joe will make up. Then you won't have to choose."

*Flashback*

"Alfie? Caspar?" I shouted as I entered their flat. "Yeah little one?" Alfie asked and Caspar followed him up the stairs. "What happened between you two and Joe?" "What do you mean? It was just something he did. Men's problems." Caspar said and I grew angry. "What did he do? It must have been serious! He didn't just black out! It was something a lot worse! So please just fucking tell me." I was now crying and Alfie pulled me into his chest. "What do you mean a lot worse?" Alfie asked as I cried into his chest.

"He tried to kill himself Alfie. And when I asked why, he said because you two hate him, dad won't talk to him and just everything. So what the fuck happened?" I don't swear often, so it was clear I was pissed off.  "Oh, i'm so sorry little one." I pushed him away from me in anger.

"So what happened?" I had now calmed down more. "He cheated. On a girl that me and Alfie are really close to. It just pissed us off and angered us. That's it." Caspar spoke. "Who?" I asked. "Someone who we know from a couple of years ago. You wouldn't know who." I sighed and thought. "Well, he gets released tomorrow so i'm gonna stay with him a while. Just to make sure he's okay and doesn't try it again." They nodded and we sat down to watch whatever was on the TV.

 After a while, I grew bored and went to see Charlotte. I knocked on the door, she answered and let me in. "You okay?" I asked. "I guess. You?" She continued. "Okay, my brother tried to kill himself. Anyway, how's your arm?" I asked again. "Okay, I guess and how is he?" She questioned.  "Good, i'm staying at his for a while when he gets out tomorrow." We continued talking for a while but got tired and decided to go to bed.

*The next morning.*

"Listen little one. I don't know if I can be with you if Joe is in the picture." Alfie started. "Are you breaking up with me!?" I screamed, I could feel tears filling my eyes but couldn't let them go. "No, but you need to choose. Me or him." He said seriously. "Alfie! He's just getting out of the hospital for attempted suicide. I can't choose right now!" I shouted angrily. "So you choose him?!" Alfie screamed. "No but I can't just drop him now can I?" I continued to shout. "Because I know if I had to choose i'd choose you Zoe. Because you're the one I love. But you obviously don't feel the same way." He continued, more calm than I was.

"I do Alf. I just can't leave him right now. He has nothing. Of course I choose you. I just can't abandon him yet. Not after yesterday. Just please? Give it a little time and when the time is right, i'm all yours. Okay?" I asked, calming down too. He nodded and took me into his arms. He left me to finish packing and I began to question what I had done. I had just promised to abandon my brother. Leave him with no one. And commit to a relationship i'm not even sure will go anywhere. We'd been together for about a year now and I didn't expect anything to have happened yet. But I was willing to throw away 21 years of memories for a relationship that might not last.

*End of flashback.*

"Yeah, hopefully Nim. If only I knew who the girl was."

A/N: I hope this is okay guys! I tried. I honestly have no idea what to write next so any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.