Skinny Love (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter eight- Too close for comfort

"So your going to have to stay here the night" 

My eyes followed the motion of his lips, breathing in all the air i could, i noticed my breathing became noticeable as Eleanor placed her hand on my arm, just above the scars. It was a poor attempt to keep me calm, but i knew she meant well, after all it was hard to stay calm when somebody is inches away from touching the blade marked skin.inches away.

I hadn't known him for a whole day, and yet I'm here in his apartment, "Surely me staying the night leaving in the morning will have the press talking about allot more" I asked sternly. Widening my eyes hope full to get a sense of mind changing. But they all seemed persistent to me staying. 

"They wont be here in the morning and we can get you out unseen, i promise" Eleanor's voice spoke softly, her reassuring was still not convincing. I turned my head in the restricted space to lock eyes with harry. He smiled a raised an eyebrow for my confirmation. 

"This is absurd,i just i need some space" every eye in the room pierced through my body as i stood and sliced the air walking towards the kitchen. I Lent over the counter recalling every word that left his mouth 'your going to have to stay here the night..' stay here..'  here...'

My hands cupped my face, Dr Green always said to get out of a situation where i was uncomfortable or where i could feel the level of anxiety within me rising. but i cant. i cant get out. I'm trapped. Here of all places, with these people of all people. strangers. "I'm sorry" a mellow husky voice echoed the room, "i should have taken you home, i should have never brought you here, we wouldn't be in this situation"  he continued defending him self. 

"and i should'nt have got up this morning, i shouldn't have agreed to come, i shouldn't be here" i lifted my head from my hands and forced my head in the direction of the echo, focusing my vision, looking beyond my tears i met a tall complexion i new all to well. He looked deep into my eyes, pulling his shoulder of the door frame, inching closer to the counter where i could feel my bones weakening  "I know you shouldn't be here, you should be at home" 

"No i shouldn't, you don't get it i shouldn't be here, it would be so much simpler if i wasn't here here on the earth" I could feel the corners of the room closing in on me as the words hit the ground. they were there on the floor lying cold and heartless. I had told him more than i told anyone ever, he knows more of me than anyone, he's seen the scars hes seen the tears and hes heard the truth. hes still that stranger. Every joint in my body gave up, i turned around and slid down the counter, my back hunched over as the tears stained my jeans, my arms hung over my knees.  breaking through my sobs i could feel the warmth of his hand on my back, i could feel him sitting hunched on the floor, mirroring my posture. I sniffed, warning him i was crying before functioning the only part of me willing to move, My neck spun round and met Harry's eyes. i followed them as the they traced my face, seeing my reflection in his glassy emerald eyes. i used the sleeve of my cardigan and wiped the running mascara away.

"I never knew you felt that way" his husky voice lowered in a successful attempt to whisper.

"i guess there's allot about me you don't know"

"look i know where you need to be is at home, and as soon as i can i'll get you there, but please stay here"

"I guess i have to"

"you do realize you guess' allot right?" we both giggled through the awkwardness. I hadn't noticed how close we were to each other until the moment he stood. He held his hand to me and lifted me from the ground. "look, i never want to hear to say that again, your worth much more than anything and you are here for a reason" I smiled at him, glancing at his eyes. the awkwardness remained, i stared at the floor, disguising how red my cheeks had become. At this point our bodies were vertically opposite and leaning against the counter. I didn't know if i liked it or it was too close for comfort. but i didn't want to make it any more awkward than it already was. "i'm sure one of the girls have some clothes you can borrow and all that kind of stuff" 

"thank you harry" a smile grew on my face, shy and embarrassed i asked "where is the bathroom again? just so i don't look like this when i walk back in" 

"through the corridor, second door on the left" 

"thank you, i should er" he moved out the way so i could exit the room with ease. i stumbled through the corridor before turning back looking directly into the kitchen where i noticed harry staring at me. the all too familiar smile appeared, he turned away embarrassed and i entered the bathroom, clutching the clasp before locking the door. every moment i was with him, i forgot about all my insecurities.