I Love You. So Much. (A Kohnnie Fanfic) (boyxboy)

Chapter 30 - Johnnie

~This is basically just a long fluff chapter, the next few chapters will most likely be as well~

(Johnnie's POV)

"Hey baby." I say, kissing my boyfriend on the head as I open my eyes "Hey." Kyle says, his voice groggily and tired sounding as he looked up at me, his face on my chest. "I love you baby." I say, playing with his fingers "I love you too." He says, smiling and giggling, making my heart flutter. He's so frickin cute. "How'd you sleep?" I ask, checking the time and seeing that it was 1:00am,  meaning we had slept for around four hours. "Hey, do you want to get up for a little or just go back to sleep?" I ask, rubbing his back as he looked up at me "I was actually think about taking a shower." He said, making me nervous

"Hey.. Um baby?" I say, looking at Kyle and running my fingers through his hair "Y-yeah?"

"Um. I-I don't mean to make you uncomfortable or anything but..can I come with you? I-I won't look or anything it- it just makes me nervous." I say, looking at him and hoping he would agree. It makes me nervous just letting m out of my sight, none the less being behind a locked door. Anything could happen, and that scares me. Scare is an understatement. It terrified me. 

"Y-you can." He said "Thank you baby." I say, picking my his chin and pecking his lips "I'm so proud of you baby." I say, looking at him and smiling as I run my fingers through his hair

"Shall we get up?" I say, smiling "We shall." Kyle says, giggling and smiling

Standing up, I take his hand, looking into his eyes and smiling a little. "Can I carry you?" I ask, my hands lightly holding his hips as I looked at him "B-but I'm so f-"

"No!" I yell, covering his mouth before he couple say it

"You are NOT fat! You are absolutely the perfect size and I never want to hear you say that." I say "I-I'm s-sorry" he says, looking down and making me realize I had just snapped at him "Baby, baby. I didn't mean to yell. I'm sorry. I just hate to hear you talk down about yourself." I say, picking up his chin and realizing he was crying. "Sweetheart. Don't cry." I say, wiping the tears off his cheeks and looking into his eyes "J-Johnnie. I'm s-sorry" He says, making me want to break down and cry "Don't be sorry beautiful. You didn't do anything wrong. I'm not mad. I promise, I'm not."

"O-okay. Y-you can carry me." Kyle says lowly, looking down at the floor "Do you want me to?" I ask, making him look up slowly

"I-I would love that." He stuttered, making me wonder if he was just doing what I wanted because he wanted to please me. "Are you sure?" I say, bringing my fingers to his face and brushing the hair out of his eyes "I want you too. I-I always loved it when you carried me. I miss it so much." He said, smiling "Your so adorable" I say, lifting him and wrapping his legs around my torso.

I kiss his neck softly and smile as he moans a little and tilts his head so I can access more skin to kiss and suck at "I love you Kyle." I whisper into his ear as I slowly walk to the bathroom

"I love you too Johnnie." He said, moaning more as I find his sweet spot, licking and sucking on it.

Opening the door I walk in, sitting him down gently and sitting down on the side of the tub "Be careful with your arm okay." I say, thinking of what the doctors said. After 3 days it can be open without a bandage on, after 6 days he could shower, but keep it bandaged so the water pressure wouldn't re-open it. We completely forgot to even take showers, we had mostly been cuddling since he was released from the hospital, we hadn't even thought about showers honestly. I don't really know what to do about the new cuts, since they were on the same arm that had the large cut from when he, tried to.  Ya. I don't really know how to bandage them since the large cut needed specific care.

"J-Johnnie?" I hear Kyle say, snapping me out of my thoughts

"Yea?" I ask, looking up at him "Y-you can stay if you want- y-you can see." He says, looking around nervously "I can?" I ask, standing up and slowly walking towards him "Y-yea." He says, looking up at me "Are you sure?" I ask, wanting to make sure he was fully comfortable with it "Ya. W-we can shower together i-if your okay with that."

"I would love to shower with you Kyle, but." I say, stopping, not knowing how I wanted to say this. "B-but what?" "T-theres something I want to do the first time I see you naked- I-I don't know if you would be comfortable with it right now." I say, running my fingers through his hair "S-sex?" He asks nervously "No not that baby." I say, wrapping my arms around him "W-what is it?" He asks and I lift my hand, touching his chin and tilting it up and looking into his eyes "I want to kiss every inch of you, I want to show you how beautiful you are." I say, looking into his eyes

"Y-you can." He says, confusing me. "What do you mean?" I say, tangling my fingers in his hair "Y-you can kiss my body." Kyle says, making my heart jolt a little "Are you sure?" I ask "I am. I-I trust you. Y-your always so careful and gentle with me, you never make me uncomfortable or make me do anything I don't want to, even though you know I would let you do anything you want to me. I love you." He says, making me pull him into my chest, hugging him and kiss the top for his head repeatedly "I love you baby. So much." I say, kissing his head again and again "I love you too Johnnie. So much." He says, looking up at me and tilting his head up for a kiss. I lock my lips with his, kissing him softly yet passionately, moving our lips together softly as I tangled my fingers in his hair, slipping my tongue in his mouth for a moment before parting, staring into his eyes and carefully gripping the backs of his thighs and picking him up, wrapping his legs around my body and carrying him to the bedroom.

As I walk into the room I close the door, clicking it and looking into my boyfriends' eyes, gripping the hem of his shirt "Can I?" I ask, looking into his eyes "Yes" Kyle responds, lifting his arms as I carefully pull off his loose, long sleeved shirt, setting it on the bed. I unbutton his pants, helping him step out of them and gently setting him on the bed, slipping down his underwear and laying him down

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More tears streamed down his face as I finished kissing and touching his skin, whispering how beautiful he was into his skin and kissing his lips. I made sure to kiss every inch of his body and yes even his cock, but it was the furthest thing possible from a sexual act.

Wiping the tears off his face I kissed his lips again, running my fingers through his hair and softly kissing down his jaw, neck, and throat before moving back to his mouth, kissing gently "How about that shower?" I ask, Kyle just nods, smiling a little and wiping his eyes before getting up and wrapping his arms around my neck carefully as I pick him up, holding his bottom as he puts his face in my shoulder as I walk to the bathroom

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I get out, holding his hand as he steps over the tub wall, I grab a towel, putting it on his head and drying his hair, making him blush and smile, covering it with his hand before I pull it away "Don't cover your smile cutie." I say, watching him giggle more, I peck his lips and kiss his fingers before beginning to dry the rest of his body

Walking to our room I dress him in one of my oversized shirts, and a pair of underwear once he said he was comfortable with that.

Looking at my phone I realize its 4:12am "We should probably get some sleep baby." I say, rubbing my nose against his and smiling

"Yea. I love you Johnnie."

"I love you Kyle." He says giggling as I pull him onto the bed and climb on top of him, pecking all over his face, making him blush madly and making me giggle.

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I fall to sleep once I know he has, spooning him and keeping my arms wrapped around him tightly. "I love you Kyle." I whisper in his ear before drifting off to sleep

A/N This chapter hit me with the feels XD And it was long as frick frack too lol. I've been writing on this app and it doesn't have a word count so I will literally write forever XD