Alex

chapter one

          "Why is it so damn dark?" I hissed towards my father "hush love, it'll be lighter once we reach the place" he coughed out. "why do we have to go there anyway Dad? Its not like It's really going to help my...Issue, besides its not even a huge deal!" He looked at me with sorrow eyes and I understood this was more difficult for him then it was for me.

I guess I need to make some sort of introduction... I'm Alexandria, but everyone calls me Alex since its much less girly (just the way I like it). I'm 14 years old. I was diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder about three years ago. After I had quite a couple of manic outbursts in class..this wasn't that abnormal for a child however, what really pushed people to realize I had something wrong with me was after I tried to kill myself.

I guess that shouldn't be something I'm willing to talk about, but after these three years of heavy medication, therapy, and gaining of a good 50 pounds or so from said medication I guess I'm classified as mentally stable and able to discuss my former self as an entirely different being.

or so I thought

The Kingston medical hospital was pretty old from the sound of it, but shut down for awhile due to the shortage of workers and money coming in. Not enough crazy people in town and not enough people that want to work with said crazies. I guess I should have known once the summer came this time it would be more difficult as to explaining why I'm wearing long sleeves all the time, last year it was a bit more easy since I barely weighed anything and was always freezing anyway. after the weight gain and the obvious sweat and refusal to remove my apparel my parents discovered my almost two years worth of self harm and scars.

When I say my parents I really only mean my father, since my mother is in the (normal people without mental issues) hospital with cancer. Dad'll never tell me what kind so I guess it must be bad...Its been really hard on him, Shes been in there for so long- I'm not even allowed in to see her since dad says i'm too young to, I don't remember her at all as much as I try to recall childhood memories of her. I guess she went in soon after I was born, I would ask dad but it makes him really bug out whenever I mention it.

I have seen a few pictures of her. She's really beautiful- Sadly I look nothing like her though, she has curly, long brown hair and bright green eyes with a splash of freckles, Dad says I'm about her height, although I have reddish brown hair and blue eyes, honestly I look nothing like either of my parents, or my grandparents for that matter. 

I guess Its just genetics.