My Ex is My Roommate

Chapter 1

"It hurts the most when the person who made you feel so special yesterday makes you feel so unwanted today."

-- Unknown

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My eyes were red. My mind is spinning around every day. What's crazy as hell is when my heart is torn into millions of small pieces and I just can't seem to build them up again. I miss him. I love him. I still love him. And I'll always love him.

The rain kept on pouring everywhere outside. Making hard sounds. Mom started driving fast, trying to make her way out of the traffic. My younger brother and my baby sister, Jonathan and Avery, were fast asleep in the back seat.

Putting my hoodie on, I lean my head towards the passenger window. Dry and cold. The same temperature like my heart. Sad and R&B music kept on playing in my phone.

Seeing two couples play around together and kiss in the rain right now while mom pass her car by the park reminded me of us.

Everyday we use to do silly and thoughtful things together. What kills me the most is how he was my best-est friend since we were in diapers. The minute we saw each other we were in love. 

Past

It was sunny and nice outside. The birds were flying, people were playing in the park and the sweet ice-cream flavor inside our mouths.

Kevin and I were laying on the green bright grass at the park. With our bodies pressed against each other and my head leaning on his strong chest.

He fed me another spoonful of my favorite flavored ice-cream. Vanilla and blueberry with my favorite topping on top... Cherry. Mm.

His ocean blue eyes that I loved were on me. I inspired them. I always wanted blue eyes. They're beautiful on him matching it with small green layers around it.

Fair-skinned and his face was so gorgeous that it looks so unreal. He was unreal. The kind of face when you were trying to copy someone's beautiful face but you keep messing up.

His muscular body and hands always melted me down.

Kevin playfully chuckled making his deep dimples pop out.

I loved the way he laugh. Always made my heart beat faster. Like a sledgehammer.

Looking at him, I tested him, "What's so funny?" I wondered.

Kevin held my hand into his, taking his last breath, "I'm here with you. Every time I'm around you Riley I always got to remind myself to breath again. Why is that?" his voice was deep yet raspy.

I shrug wanting him to say it himself.

"Because I love you. I love you with all my soul and heart. We're still in a relationship since we were little kids and look at us now. I don't see no other girl but you. You have everything I need in someone. Beautiful, smart, loyal, nice, sweet, charming, stubborn, creative, thoughtful... I can still keep naming them all."

"What's the number 1 word is you're a good best friend. I'll never forget that. I'm in love with you Riley Carters. I'll kill to do anything for you. You're my food, my heart, my breath... My world. Losing you would be like losing my life. And... I can't seem to live without that Riley." Kevin's breath was huffing and his heart was beating fast.