Another Day Another Breath

My sister Krystal

Its over.. I fell to my knees hoping it was all a dream you were my happiness you breathing is what made me happy in so many ways it killed me seeing you lying on that bed white as a ghost the room was dead you could feel the heaviness, tension, and heartbreak surrounding everybody's heart I was the only one not in tears yet but I knew it wouldn't be long before I was I remember waking up that morning at home to my dad crying I knew what he meant when he looked at me and said we had to go  I remember us getting there and me running into the room as fast as I could my heart beating so fast my sister coming up to me before I could even look up to see everybody sobbing and you laying there lifeless my sister says to me "she's gone..." my heart broke even more hearing that come out of her mouth and that moment is when I dropped to my knees I was so weak my whole body shaking uncontrollably until it finally went numb from the pain after a while I get back up can yet can barley breath I was trying so hard not to cry my sister buried her her face in my shoulder I could feel her heart beating on my chest as she sobbed for a good five to ten minutes she was holding me tightly the whole time when she finally let go and walked away is the first time I looked up to see everybody crying my mom was sitting by the bed I tried to make my way over to her but a crowd of people gathered around me " its gonna be fine" one person said and " she's in a better place" says another so many things were said I cant even remember what they were when the crowd finally died down I made my way over to my mom and hugged her as tight as I could " mom I love you with all my heart I just want you to know that" I say to her she says " baby I know I love you too" I looked at you in that bed and thought "why? Why'd you have to go out like that sissy?" I ran out of the room and into the bathroom and locked myself in there a good half an hour sobbing and crying because I knew if I cried in front of everybody else out there they would crowd around me hugging me loving me and thats not what I wanted I wanted to be left alone I wanted to feel like I was alone I didnt want attention honestly thats the last thing I wanted but I finally came out of the bathroom and put on a fake smile and comforted everyone else who was crying I remember getting on the elevator going down stairs to the cafeteria this African American man got on the elevator with me on the same floor I stood in front of him facing the door he was in back left corner  "how are you doing dear" "good i guess..." I say staring at his reflection from the elevator door he answers back " hon I know its tough right now losing you sister like that but she is in a better place now and I promise Ill take care of her" I told him absolutely nothing about losing my sister he was one a whole different part of the floor to so how could he know that.. The elevator stops and I walk through the door way but still blocking so he cant get off I look back to say thank you and he's not there and I remember him being on there with me I remember talking to the man but where could he have went? Was he my sister's guardian angel? What was he? I know he was there I know what I saw but to this day I still have yet to understand where he went to and what he meant when he told me that