I have known BTS for a while now. I met them through Rap monster. We spent alot of times together and out of no where I started to fall for one of them. Jin has always been nice to me. He is sweet, handsome, funny and good hearted. How could any girl not fall for him. But I was not sure how I felt since I have never felt that way before. So I just pretended I felt nothing. But I could tell everyone else knew about my feelings.
"So you gonna ask Jin out on a date or what?"
"Why..why would you ask me that V?"
"Because you like him." He laughed while I looked around to make sure no one was listening.
"I dont..." V looked at me with disapprovement as he knew what I was going to say. "Fine I do." I surrendered. There was no point in fighting and denying it. "But you can't tell him."
"Why not?"
"I'm not ready for him to know. Please V." I begged.
"All right fine. I think you are making a big deal about it though."
"Maybe I will tell him after I get back from seeing my family in California."
"If you don't, I will."
The day before I was supposed to leave for California, we all went to an amusement park for the day. Jin and I could not stop talking or laughing. We were always sitting next to each other on the rides. I was starting to think he does like me. Maybe V is right. Maybe I should just tell him. What was keeping me from telling him? A fan ran up to Jin for an autograph. Then I remembered why I was so afraid.
"What was that the fifth fangirl to ask for your autograph?"
"Yeah but who's keeping count" he chuckled. Apparently him I thought.
We decided to take a break from the rides and grabbed something to eat. As we're eating, V started looking at us. I looked at him and he gestured to me obviously wanting me to tell him. I just shook my head no. V looked disappointed. Then he got up toward the group.
"You know guys. I want to say something. Life is too short. Today...the fun we are having, best day ever. We really needed this especially since we practice so much. But what I don't understand is how people just sit and let life pass them by. What are they waiting for to take chances?" As he was speaking, everyone can notice he was looking at me the whole time.
"What's your point V?" Jin asked curious as to what he was implying.
"Kira, do you want to take this?" I looked down, away from Jin. "For goodness sake. Kira is in love with someone in this group and she doesn't have the guts to tell him."
"V!!" I yelled. Everyone looked at Jin.
"Kira?" Jin said. I felt so embarrassed and angry I ran out. I went to the service desk to call for a cab. As I was waiting, Jin came in.
"Kira can we talk."
"I don't want to talk. V had no right to do that."
"Is it true?" I just looked at Jin with sad eyes. That's not the way I wanted to tell him. "Where are you going?"
"I'm going home. I think I've had enough fun for one day."
"Please don't go. Let's talk."
"I don't want to talk right now. I should go home and finish packing. I leave tomorrow."
Jin grabbed both my hands and forced me to look at him. "Kira...I like you. I like you alot." The cab pulled up.
"I have to go." As I let go of Jins hands, I can see his disappointment in his eyes.
"Can we talk when you return?"
"Yeah sure."
"I'll be waiting for you. As long as it takes."
Before getting in the cab, I glanced back at him and gave him a smile. He waved goodbye.
Question was, probably something he was thinking as well: will I come back?
