Lighter

Can I just ask something? It's been awhile but where did we go wrong? We were so strong... But somewhere, somehow we went wrong... But I know you're probably forgetting about me, about us, the memories. As I'm writing this in my living room I have to get up and go to my room before I suddenly burst into tears. I'll look through the old photos of you that I still have yet to delete and I'll probably get tears in my eyes but they'll never fall wondering where the hell it all went... Maybe, just maybe I'll delete those little pictures of you and those videos I made for you today. Oh but don't worry, I found someone else... I drive him up a wall sometimes with my stubbornness. You wouldn't understand because I was never stubborn with you.. We talk every night doesn't matter if I call him or he calls me, even if he's mad at me for whatever I did. You wouldn't understand, you never did that for me.. We went days, then weeks, then months without calling I suddenly forgot how your voice even sounds anymore, what your laugh even sounds like.. But that doesn't matter anymore, no not at all. I know I left you but you gave me no choice, didn't seem like you cared to much if I left.. Even now it doesn't seem to affect you one bit.. You moved on with your life, as have I but it seems to you that I never existed I was just some girl that meant nothing. Funny how it seems to work in such ways.. I thought I was your everything, your world, one day your wife, but no.. Those were more tales that were never going to exist. Now I'm his everything, his world, his forever.. Not that me telling you such things would make you care, because it won't. You've proved that but that's okay, I just would expect more from you after us being together for almost a year, but that doesn't matter right? No, I didn't expect it to in the slightest. I deleted everything.. Your pictures, the screenshots of the dear sweet texts you use to send me once upon a time but all that vanished along with the boy I once fell for. But of course, we must not live in the past right? You seem to have started that before I decided to leave, but that's okay I won't hold you accountable for that. You won't have to worry about that.. The next thing to go is your texts messages now that still live in my phone, maybe even that number of yours. What's the point in having that anymore? You won't need it.. I'll let you live on with your life and I'll live on with mine. Maybe one day, just one day I'll haunt your dreams and the memories will come back to eat away at you. Is it bad for me to hope that happens? But here's the thing I won't come back to you, I'll let you suffer with you watching me with someone else, someone better because I deserve that, yes? You can just sit there and watch him treat me better than you have, watch him love me more than you did, you don't deserve me anymore. So yes, I do hope you miss me one day and regret that you let me slip away and walk out the door because it's time for me to finally be happy. I thought I knew what happiness was when I was you.. But I was wrong. I now know what happy is when I'm with him, but don't feel bad oh no no I wouldn't want that. Actually... Come to think of it I hope it eats away at you because you let a good girl slip away.. Someone that was going to give you the world and more but.. You let her slip away and now someone else has her! Funny, right?! I think so. So as you're reading this, he'll be making me laugh and calling me beautiful. Remember when that use to be you? That's a memory I just burned, along with the others and the pictures. Don't worry! You'll get those pictures in the mail, then you'll have to live with them because I'm done with them. Along with you.