Lou's POV
I was sitting in the diner waiting for her to arrive. Her name is Tori and she's beautiful. I love y/n but Tori is just... Better I guess you could say. After a minute she arrived in this amazing red dress with her hair curled perfectly. Not to much make up either.
"Wow..." I gasped. She laughed.
"You don't look to bad your self Lou ." she gave me a kiss on the lips and sat done at the booth. I could see her slightly visible baby bump. We were having a boy. God I was excited to be a dad, especially with the boys being his uncle's . She was absolutely breath taking .
"How was your day babe?" She asked as she held my hands from across the table.
"It was good. Yours ? And of course my little lad in there." I said looking to her tummy.
"He's good. And so am I." She smiled. She then sighed.
"Where's she at?" She asked. My smile faded.
"Home." I blankly said. She nodded.
"How much longer are you gonna keep hiding us ? Its been almost a year. I have your baby for fucks sake !" She raised her voice a bit causing people to look.
"Can you be quiet please ?" I asked lowering my head.
"Of course. That's all I can do with you. Is be quiet." She took her hands back and crossed her arms looking away from me. We ordered our food and started eating.
Your POV
I was waiting for my love to come home. He said he had to work late so I guess I should probably go to sleep since its late already. Its about 10 now and I'm pregnant so I don't need to be up late. Lou doesn't know yet.
"Oh well.. " I sighed. I put on a tank top and some shorts. I felt sick all day so I wasn't big on waiting for him to come home. I brushed my teeth and looked in the mirror admiring the bump. I planned to tell Lou in the morning. I was only about 4 months in but I just found out yesterday. We weren't even planning on having a child which is why I'm scared to tell him. What if he leaves me or wants an abortion? That will break my heart and he promised to never do that. I climbed into bed and hugged my body pillow and clung to it.
Lou's POV
I was taking Tori home early since we started fighting. We got to her house and she wasted no time getting out of the car and walking inside her flat. I sighed and drove back to mine. I got there in about 20 minutes and unlocked the door. All the lights were off so I assumed she was asleep. I went up stairs and showered then changed into some basketball shorts and no shirt. I crawled into bed with her not bothering to hold her as a feeling of guilt washed over me. I cringed as I knew what I was doing was wrong but continued to see them both. I loved them both so much. I do. Y/n's just so clingy and Tori isn't like that. She's laid back and let's me have some fun once in a while. When Tori told me she was pregnant I freaked out. Not in a good way. I didn't want her to be pregnant but I had to act excited so she won't leave me. I don't want to be a dad at the moment. I'm going on tour soon and all the fans and everything is just to much. Don't get me wrong my fans are the best but sometimes its hard not having a single moment to my self. I sighed and closed my eyes as I fell asleep.
-There was so much drama right now and I wasn't happy. Tori has been being all emotional lately and she's about 8 months pregnant so that wasn't helping. I came over here to her flat so we could talk.
"I left her. No more hiding us." I said. She smiled and squealed as she hugged me. Part of me regretted leaving y/n. Its been about a week and I left her in the worst state. She hasn't been sleeping, she's been sick all the time, grumpy and always yelling, she wouldn't eat a thing or even get out of bed. I felt so terrible and I wanted her back. I've been thinking if I should talk to her but I don't think she wants to. Plus I just told Tori so that wasn't an option at the moment. Time flew by, its been a few months and I've tried contacting y/n but she won't answer my calls or texts. Me and Tori were out at a coffee shop. I never told y/n anything about Tori or cheating on her. I seen her walking into the shop with a guy. Her boyfriend? She was pregnant. My heart skipped a beat. I immediately got up and walked to her and Tori looked mad as ever but I didn't care.
"Y/n..." I breathed. She looked at me In Complete shock. A look of fear on her face.
"I miss you" I blurted.-
I woke up with sweat covering my body.
"Oh thank god your not pregnant y/n." I sighed and laid down trying to calm down. I needed to end it with Tori. I decided I would in the morning. I guess my feelings for her were fake. I was o ly with her to relive some strestress. I didn't love her. I loved y/n.
Your POV.
I woke up at around 6 to Lou's phone blowing up. He was still asleep so I grabbed it.
Tori: babe you need to come now. This baby is coming. GET YOUR ASS HERE AND QUIT BEING TO PUSSY TO TELL Y/N!" My heart broke as I read those texts.. Tears were streaming down my face. I was an ex-cutter but lou changed that. He promisedto never break my heart. He knew how sensitive I was, not meaning to be. He knew everything. I set his phone done and walked to the bathroom. I felt myself getting sick. I opened the toilet and all the vomit went into the bowl. I flushed and closed the door sliding down it crying. I grabbed the razor I hid and I couldn't help myself. I pressed it against my wrists and let it do what it does best. The flesh ripping apart like my heart had done. I totally forgot I'm pregnant and I gasped.
"What have I done? Why doesn't he love me ? Why doesn't anyone love me? I'm trying so hard for nothing." I sobbed. I heard Lou moan and the bed moving. I covered my mouth hoping he wasn't getting up to come to the bathroom. After a few moments he snored so I knew he was asleep. His phone started ringing and ringing. It stopped when he picked it up.
"Yeah?" He asked. I could hear faint yelling in the distance.
"Shit already? Yeah I'll be there okay. Bye" I could hear him race to get ready and run out the door of room. He didn't even notice I wasn't there. I sobbed uncontrollably again and stuck the razor back to my skin. I shouldn't be but.... It felt right. I mean its just a few cuts. It won't hurt the baby right ? I sure hope not. After about an hour it was 7am so I got up and went downstairs. I grabbed a trash can and laid down on the couch with it beside me in case I get sick again. I brought a blanket and covered my self up. The cuts have stopped but I didn't even bother to clean them. He won't come back till probably tomorrow so I'm not tripping. I closed my eyes and they started burning. I soon fell asleep again.
I woke up when I heard someone messing with the door. I opened my eyes and seen Lou locking the door. I rolled my eyes and turned to face the inside of the couch. I seen him walk past to go down the hall to the bathroom. Fuck. I forgot to clean up the blood and razors. I threw off the blanket and ran up stairs.
Lou's POV
I turned to lock the door since I just got home from the hospital. I looked to see her layig on the couch asleep. It was about 10pm not so I went down the hall to waz first. I walked in and my heart dropped when I saw all the blood and the razor. Tears came to my eyes. I heard footsteps running up the stairs. I ran after her.
"Y/n!" I yelled. She slammed the door in my face and I could hear her sobs. I opened it and ran to her seeing both wrists and thighs consumed in cuts and blood.
"Get the fuck away from me ! You promised to never break my heart and that's exactly what you did ! Shouldn't you be with your kid and its mother ?! I mean ha. Did you not think I heard you when you said " thank god your not pregnant? " but some other bitch is with your kid ? Well guess what Louis. I'm pregnant with ou- I mean my daughter. I hope your happy you piece of shit!" She yelled. Oh. My. God. My heart broke into so many pieces. I started crying with every word she said and I regret everything I've done.
" I didn't mean to I'm so sorry baby please ! I didn't mean to say that this morning I just-"
"Just what ?! Don't want me? Don't want a baby ? Or just a baby with me obviously. You know how depressed I was and you changed that jut to turn around and be the one to hurt me the most?! Really ?!" She screamed. He tank was soaked in blood and she was shivering. I grabbed a sweater and tried giving it to her but she threw it.
"Get out bastard !" She yelled.
What. Have. I. Done.
