Three of me.

Everyday, as I walk around town I feel the stares, I hear people talk about me, & more importantly I can smell the hate.

This started sophomore year, when my mother was put into a mental institution and soon put down. They said she couldn't live among other people. Bullshit. I've lived with her for 15 years, and you're gonna tell me she can't live among us?! Whatever. So I guess people in my town heard what happened to her, and assumed I was the same way. 

You are the same way.

No I'm not.

Yes you are. YOU'RE FUCKING CRAZY. Embrace it.

Okay, maybe I'm like my mother. I have 3 different personalities. Melany (myself), Ariana & Jade. They're like voices inside my head. Ariana is sweet, bubbly, & oh so naive. Jade on the other hand is dark, manipulative, & murderous. And me? Well I'm just a regular teenager, trying to find her purpose in life.

I have long black hair, gorgeous green eyes, and and I have a quite pale skin tone. Shit, I'm cute. If only people didn't think I was crazy, I wouldn't have problems. 

GET TO CLASS YOU'RE GOING TO BE LATE!!

You'll be fine... nobody will notice you're gone..

DON'T LISTEN TO HER, GO!

As I'm walking to history, I run into my friend Malik. He's the only one who really understands me. 

"Hey girl, what's yo fine ass doing out of class?"

"Ya know, just running a little late. haha" I can feel myself blushing. I guess you can say I have a thing for Malik.

You totally just blew it.

No I didn't shut up.

She did fine, I'm sure he likes her too.

Why would anybody like her? She's crazy. 

Leave me alone.

"Shall I walk you to class?" Malik smirked. Something about him is just, ugh I don't know. He makes me happy. 

"Yes you shall!!" I said, laughing and I held his hand. 

We finally made it to my class, and he left by kissing me on the cheek. People stared, as usual. Malik is the kind of guy  that doesn't care about what other people think. He's only worried about what makes HIM happy. I like that. 

My class ended and now I'm just walking home. I hate going home. I'd much rather be in school.

I'm sure your uncle doesn't mean you harm!

Are you fucking kidding me? He's RAPING her.

Maybe he has good intentions!!

Dumbass, there's only bad intentions in raping someone.

You dont know that!!

GUYS SHUT UP PLEASE!! 

I live with my uncle who abuses me and occasionally rapes me. Nice life, right? It's the fucking struggle. My dad left me and my mom after my sister died. Then ya know what happened to my mom.. so now I live with my uncle.

Walking helps me take my mind off alot of things. Until Jade brings them back up into my head. Ariana is always looking for the good things in my life, but let's face it there is none. 

I walk into my house and immediatley I get hit in the back of the head. I fall to the floor. 

"GET UP YOU STUPID CUNT." I get up. I don't like being yelled at, I feel weaker than I already am. 

"TAKE YOUR FUCKING CLOTHES OFF." Then he threw me on the bed.

YEAH. GOOD INTENTIONS HUH ARIANA??

Well maybe he just needs some love... everybody needs love.

Not this way. Not forced love. We need to get rid of this man.

NO! NO WAY. THAT'S SO MEAN.

Shut the fuck up.

I take off my  clothes slowly.. I should've never came home.

"HURRY UP BITCH!!! FIINE I'LL FUCKING DO IT." He quickly pulls my pants down along with my panties. I no longer fight it. There's no use.

"ahh, yes. that nice shaved pussy, just how I like it. Get ready bitch." Then before I knew it he forced himself inside me. I let out a loud scream. 

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!! DAMN, YOU DON'T WANT ANYBODY TO HEAR YOU. I'LL KILL YOU, DUMB SLUT." During each word in his sentence was a thrust, that went faster and faster. This is crazy. I can't keep living like this. Here I am, silently fucking my uncle. What type of shit is that? It's been going on for years and I haven't said anything... maybe I'm just scared. I just can't wait until this is over. 

Suddenly I feel a pounding on my head, and I knock out...