I couldn’t look at Christian the same way at school on Monday, he made me blush, and I was still with Zacharie. I felt like a bit of a whore, but my heart kept telling me if was harmless fun. Yet on Wednesday night, our conversations changed. They turned dirty.
We talked about what we would do to each other, and he told me that he could make me feel better, Zacharie wasn’t pleasing me, but he could, he could give me what I wanted. Whenever I saw Christian, my heart leapt. He told me he didn’t love Faye anymore, and that he really liked me. I told him we couldn’t do anything, when all I wanted was for him to be with me.
Toyah seemed to notice a change in me. She kept looking at me curiously, as though if she looked at me long enough, she could work it all out. I didn’t tell anyone about Zacharie's bad kissing, or about Christian's hot sexy texts. Soon, she would come and ask me about it. I was right, she grabbed me as soon as she got to school on Thursday and drilled me on it.
"Okay, enough. What's up with you?" she demanded.
"Huh?"
"Don’t play dumb, Bennie. Your looking so loved up... Oh My God! Did you and Zach… Do 'it' or something!?"
Haha, if she only knew!
"EW NO." I screamed.
I suppose I could tell her, she is my best friend…
"What then? Before I shove my Science Essay in your damn happy face."
I hesistated a second longer, before filling my best friend in with all the drama of the last week.
"Ooh… So are you dating Christian?"
"Weren't you listening?" I laughed, "I'm still with Zacharie."
"Oh yeah. Bummer. Are you gonna dump Zach?" she asked me.
"Dunno… I might. He… uh… Okay Toy, you know your birthday party?"
"Sure… What about it?"
"Well, me and Zacharie kissed…"
"I think I guessed that, all of us did, both of you didn’t come for food-"
"Yes, yes, but, when we did, he… uh… he kind of, well, ate me."
She raised an eyebrow.
"Ate you? What, like this?" she bit my arm, hard.
"OW! No!"
"Then you better elaborate!" she scolded.
"His mouth… it was very wide! I- I could feel his teeth! He virtually ate my face!"
She went quiet for a moment, before laughing so hard that she nearly fell over.
"He… He… H- He WHAT?" she exclaimed, barely getting her words out.
"He ate me, Toyah. He ate my face."
She cracked up even harder, fell on the ground and cried.
After about 10 minutes of this, she finally straightened up and then said.
"Well that sucks."
"That’s what Christian said."
"Ooh, we should give people codenames, or they'll know about your secret love life." she giggled.
"Oh jeez…"
"No come on, it will be fun!"
I sighed.
"Fine Toy. We need a nickname for Christian."
"Okay… Christian… Chris… Chrys… Crease… Fold!"
"Fold? Really?" I said, in slight disbelief.
"Sure, no-one will get it."
"Kay, but what about Zacharie?" I asked.
"Hmm… Zacharie… Zach… what rhymes with Zach? Ooh Pack! Pac-Man!"
"Pac-Man!?" I shrieked.
"Go with it."
I rolled my eyes, and surrendered.
"We need one for Faye too, she can't know we're talking about her."
"Faye… Hay… Hey… Hello… Goodbye… Wave?"
"Sure…"
Once I got home I turned my phone on and checked for any messages.
(2) Messages= Christian
I looked at them, they were just texts asking me how I was, and then had an idea.
I changed Zach and Christian's names on my contacts so that if I got a message from either of them, it would just come up with their codenames.
I replied to the text saying I was fine, and I hadn't even put my phone down before I got a reply.
'I have to tell you something.'
Ah shit.
'Sure, what's up?'
'I dumped Faye…'
I froze.
'Really?'
'Yeah, she didn’t take it well. But I cant be with her, Bennie, I don’t trust her anymore.'
I knew that wasn’t the only reason.
'Is this because of me? I don’t want to hurt people…'
'No Ebony, really, she kept smoking, I cant deal with that shit anymore.'
I felt a little relief, but I knew it was also because of me flirting with him, which made me feel like a bitch.
I text Toyah;
'Fold dumped Wave.'
'Oooooh. You could go out with him if you dumped Pac-Man.'
'I dunno…'
'You said yourself that he wasn’t right for you…' she replied.
'But maybe he is… I don’t wanna hurt him…'
'Bennie your hurting him more but keeping him on a piece of string. If you don’t like him like that you gotta end it.'
That was true. I had to do this. I couldn’t keep hurting Zach anymore.
