Between Love and Hate (Julian Casablancas fanfic)

Im leaving

I called Julian and he said to go this his so I took a cab there. I knocked on the door and Nick opened it "why hello there" he smirked looking at me up and down so I blushed
"Uh is Julian here" I said getting embarrassed
"Nick stop hitting on my girlfriend!" He yelled "yah I'm here" he laughed and so did Nick so I stepped inside and instantly Julian pulled me into a kiss
"Ew get your couply stuff away from me" Nick said pretending to throw up so Julian flipped him off
"So how was it?" Julian asked as I sat down with him on his couch
"Pretty good but kids did hit on me so that was funny" I laughed and he started to get protective so I told him what happened and he laughed afterwards.
"What do you teach anyways?" Asked Nick sitting down on the couch with us
"Oh I teach Molecular Neuroscience" I said and they gave me a confused look so I repeated myself.
"Yah no it's not that we didn't hear you, we just have no fucking idea what that is" Nick said taking a sip from his beer
"Molecular neuroscience is a branch of neuroscience that examines the biology of the nervous system with molecular biology, molecular genetics, protein chemistry, and related methodologies" I said and Julian took Nicks beer and drank the rest so I laughed
"So you can play many instruments, sing, are crazy smart, and you are hot well shit you're lucky Casablancas" laughed Nick grabbing another beer and drinking out of it so I just blushed.
"I am lucky" Julian kissed me pushing me down on the couch but my head was on Nicks lap
"Jules I'm on Nicks lap" I laughed apologizing to Nick
"He doesn't care" he said kissing me again
"Im sure he does" I laughed
"I suggest you get your face away from my crotch unless you are going to give me a blow job" Nick said so I sat up but yet again Julian pushed me down but before I said anything Julian kissed Nick
"WOAH OKAY!" I yelled as I wasn't expecting that "that was pretty hot, I got to admit" and Julian and Nick laughed
"We now see the perverted side of Cass" Nick laughed
"Hey let me live a little" I laughed as Nick put his arm on my forehead
"You thought it was hot Cass" Julian said and I was confused
"Julian.....what are you going to do" I said chuckling
"I'm going to suck his dick" he said grabbing his belt from over my head so I opened my mouth wide then laughed
"That's funny Jules" I laughed and he undid his buckle "Oh my god, Nick you aren't doing anything!" I laughed and he just shrugged his shoulders "you guys are acting like you've done this before" and they both looked at me "no...NO OMG YOU GUYS HAVE AAH!" I basically screamed
"Whenever you kiss Julian it's like you're sucking my dick" Nick smirked and I pursed my lips and scrunched up my face. Julian pulled down Nick's pants "nope nope nope nope I do not want to see your friends dick" I said rolling out from under Julian onto the floor
"Awww come on Cass you thought it was hot" Julian said
"The kiss not that" I laughed so Nick pulled back on his jeans and Julian let me sit back down in the middle again
"It's not like you haven't experimented with a girl" said Nick
"I have" I said and they both looked to me "yah I have, with Joana" I said and they looked at each other then back to me. I looked at Julian's pants and saw a tent poking through and also with Nick "IM KIDDING EVEN IF I DID I WOULDNT HAVE TOLD YOU GUYS!" I laughed
"So you haven't" said Julian pouting and I rolled my eyes
"I mean I have had girlfriends before" I said and they looked at me so I brought my knees to my chest "what I'm bisexual" I said as I blushed
"God you're fucking hot" Julian said pushing me down again on Nick's lap
"Julian yet again I'm on his lap" I laughed pushing him off
"I'm fine with you laying your head it's just awkward that you guys are makingout on my lap" he chuckled so I apologized. Julian put on the television and we watched some random shows "you know when you lay on your side your boobs squish together by the way" Nick said so I looked towards my chest and saw the top to the jumper was low so I blushed and pulled it back up. Nick put his arm on top of mine but moved closer and closer to my ass till he was squeezing it, Julian didn't notice but obviously I did so I looked towards him and he had smirk on his face but wasn't facing me but I could see in the corner of his eyes he was looking at my expression. I was going to move his hand till he started to rub my lower region through the fabrics on my jumper and underwear, I looked at him then sat up moving his hand and laid my head on Julian's shoulder glaring at Nick and he smiled at me so I kept on watching television.// I yawned and looked at the time seeing it was midnight "hey babe I think I'm gonna go home" I said sitting up straight stretching
"No just stay here" said Julian wrapping his arms around me
"I have classes tomorrow" I laughed and he snuggled into me
"I'll drop you off in the morning" he said giving me puppy eyes and was pouting so I rolled my eyes and chuckled. He pulled me up and led me to his room
"I can't sleep with my make up on do you have a rag" I asked as he plopped onto his bed
"Yah there should be one in the bathroom" he said pulling off his shirt and pants so I headed to the bathroom. I got in there and started to clean off my make up when someone grabbed my hips from behind me and put their dick against my ass so I jumped and looked to see Nick so I turned around.
"What the fuck Nick!" I whisper screamed and he smiled finishing the beer in his hand "I'm with Julian okay" I said wiping off the rest of my make up, I was going to walk out but Nick was in the way "Nick please move" I said stepping back to see if I can get past him. He stepped towards me and looked down at me since he was taller than me and I furrowed my eyebrows wondering what he was doing, he grabbed my face and kissed me, I tried to break free from it but he pinned me up to a wall and had my hands pinned up too. He somehow got his tongue inside my mouth and I could tell he had drank A LOT of beer, I really didn't want to do it but he left me no choice. I kneed his testicular area and he let go of me so I got behind him and bent his arm back
"If you ever do that again Valensi I will dislocate your shoulder and break your forearm" I whispered in his ear and he had tears streaming down his face, wow did I kick him that hard...oops. I let go and wiped my mouth going back to Julian's room. I opened the door and Julian had fell asleep so I carefully got into the bed falling asleep a little later on.// I woke up with Julian's arms engulfing me with my face in his chest so I yawned stretching my legs a bit and snuggled back into him
"You're awake" Julian said in a raspy morning voice which I felt like throwing off my clothes right then and there but I didn't.
"Yah I am" I laughed sitting up and he laid his head on my lap looking up at me so I played with his shaggy hair kissing him remembering what happened last night so I shook it off. I looked at the time and saw I had a couple hours to get ready so I stood up and stretched
"You know what" Julian said so I nodded my head "I've never officially taken you out for a date"
"Oh well yah I guess that's true,
I don't really care" I said shrugging shoulders
"I wanna take you out" he said giving me small kisses so I smiled
"You don't have to, you know that right" I said wrapping my arms around his neck
"I want to though" he said so I laughed
"So where are you taking me Mr. Casablancas" I asked and he smiled at me
"Don't worry it's a surprise" he laughed as he knows I hate surprises so I rolled my eyes. "Want something to eat we have cereal?" Julian asked and I nodded my head, we went to the kitchen and saw everyone
"Mornin Cass!" Albert said happily so I looked to him and looked everyone, I furrowed my eyebrow and laughed
"Hi Albert!" I said matching his excitement "are you always this awake in the morning" I laughed and he nodded his head
"Every. Single. Day." Nikolai said
"I feel bad for you guys" I laughed
"I'm right here!" Albert yelled and I smiled at him
"Here you go Cass" said Julian putting a bowl of cereal on the table so I sat down next to him. I ate my cereal silently while going through my phone till I got a phone call so I answered it
"Hello" I said putting down my spoon and no one answered "hello?" I said again
"I see you found a new boyfriend huh" said Jamie my ex who's the one I broke their arm for trying to hurt me so I almost choked on the cereal I was eating and Julian patted my back so I swallowed it "I will find you" he said so I hung up and threw my phone on the ground cracking it.
"Woah are you okay?!" Asked Albert as my face flushed of all colour
"Y-y-yah" I said picking my phone back up looking at the cracked screen "Julian can you take me home" I asked grabbing my bag and thing frantically
"Um yah.." He said grabbing his keys, I was going to open my door but he grabbed me "are you okay?" He asked looking at me worried and I shook my head rapidly "what happened?" He asked in a soothing voice trying to calm me but it wasn't working and again I shook my head
"You're gonna have to tell us what happened to help you out" said Fab
"Jamie" I said
"What about this Jamie?" Asked Nikolai
"My ex. I broke his arm because tried to hurt me. He threatened me so I got a restraining order. He still threatens me but I thought I got rid of him long ago." I said in spurts of sentences
"Oh god are you gonna be okay going to work?" Asked Julian and I shook my head
"I can't miss work it's only my second day" I said
"How about I'll stay by the door of your class for the rest of the day till you leave" Julian said caressing me cheek and I looked down
"You don't have to" I said feeling like a burden to all of them
"It's okay" he said hugging me "I never noticed this scar on you" Julian said grazing his thumb over my scar on the back of my neck
"Oh that's nothing" I said and the others can see I was lying so I gave them a pleading look not to tell if Julian doesn't notice. "Can you take me home I need to go" I asked and he squeezed me tighter then let go grabbing his keys again and taking me home. I got home and Joana was on the couch eating something, she saw that I was down and asked me what was wrong "Jamie" is all I needed to say and she comforted me. I got ready which was just jeans and a random band shirt, which was the first thing I saw and Julian came with me to work. "Try not to make yourself too noticeable" I said
"Kind of hard to do when you're 6'2" and look way older than everyone" he laughed so I laughed with him. I lead him the quick way to the classroom and he stood by the door as I took a seat in hold on the class
"Good morning everyone hope you're doing fine" I said pulling out papers "we are going to be starting off with the basics of Molecular Neuroscience today so pull out your textbooks" some kid raised their hand so I pointed towards them
"You listen to The Strokes Ms. Barba" they said and I looked down at my shirt and saw I was wearing a Strokes shirt so I laughed
"No I don't I actually hate them especially the lead singer" I chuckled glancing towards Julian and he flipped me off "I'm being sarcastic obviously, yes I do love them" I laughed turning towards the board and writing things down "fun fact: I went to school with Nick, Albert, and Fab for you.." I said turning around wanting to know her name
"Haley" she answered her eyes beaming and filled with sparkles
"I actually hated them to be honest" I laughed and she gave me a confused face "they seemed so immature but they grew up to be not half bad" I said and Julian smiled at me
"You are talking in a sense like if you talk to them now?" Haley said and I smiled and moved on writing the definition of the science class. The class had finished and I was handing them papers which were due tomorrow when Haley was the last one to grab one "do you talk to them now?" She asked and I smiled at her "can you please get them to sign atleast something for me I love them so much especially Albert" she blushed and I laughed
"I possibly can" I said as I saw Julian sneak up behind her
"Boo." He said so she slowly turned around and she cupped her mouth with her hands
"What are you doing here!" She squealed
"I'm here to see my lovely girlfriend" he said putting his arm around me and kissing me and she awed at us
"Please don't tell anyone that me and him are together I don't anyone else in my classes it means more work" I joked at she laughed
"You wanted me to sign something right?" Julian said and she nodded her head taking out a sketchbook and he signed it, he gave her a big hug and she thanked him for everything "also I'll tell Albert that a very beautiful lady likes him" he winked and she blushed scurrying off to her next class or whatever she has. He kissed me and dipped me down still kissing me so I laughed "you looked hot talking smart and shit" Julian said and I blushed.// I finished up those classes and we headed back to my place, "it's kinda weird that earlier you were petrified of everything now you're normal" Julian said driving to my apartment
"I can't be scared or sad for long, it's either I can get over someone or something quickly or hold it forever" I said looking out the window. We got to my house
"Meet me at the closest park in 20 minutes" Julian whispered in my ear kissing me and I got out confused and he drove off. What can this boy be up to now. I went inside and chilled for a little then took a cab to the park he was talking about, once I got there I looked around and saw Julian sitting down by a tree and it seemed like a picnic was set up so I sat down and kissed him
"You didn't have to Jules" I laughed "I'm internally screaming this is adorable" and he kissed me again. We laughed and joke around for a while and decided to put the stuff away
"Wanna go get ice cream Cass" he said taking a hold of my hand so I kissed him and said yah. We walked down to a little shop and I got a plain vanilla while Julian got cookies and creme, we sat on the curb eating ice cream as the sun was setting. I rested my head on his shoulder after we were done eating "Cass." Julian said so I looked at him and he had a sad look
"What is it?" I asked looking at him and he averted his eyes away from me, he sighed and I got worried
"I'm leaving soon" is all he said and I gave him a confused look
"Leaving soon to where" I asked
"I'm going on tour in 3 days" he said looking away and my eyes watered. Why do I do this, why do I always get attached to someone. The reason I never said I loved him was because I was afraid to get attached, well I guess that's too late
"3 days" my voice shook as tears were streaming down my face. He turned back to me and wiped my tears pulling me into a tight embrace. I hugged him holding tight onto his shirt "Julian, why do I get attached so quickly" I cried and he put his face in the crook of my neck, I laughed and Julian asked what was up "it's funny that I thought you would leave me for someone else but you are leaving for a tour" I chuckled
"I want to take everyone somewhere fancy but not too fancy" he said kissing me
"Okay set up a day" I said resting my forehead against his
"Do you work tomorrow since it's a Saturday?" He asked and I shook my head "okay so tomorrow I'll text you the place so dress as pretty as you want" he smiled and I chuckled "let's go to yours yah?" He asked and I nodded my head and headed to his car to go back to mine.