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Part One

I had a dream that I woke up and was thirteen again. I had all my memories from 13 through to 20 and was devastated that my dog was not with me. I had my dog Smokey back, I had my mom back in my life, and Logan. I had old milk bowls in my window ceil and.. I had the worst person in my entire childhood back... the first thing I did was feed Smokey because I knew that he hadn't been fed, then I went around the house just thinking about what I was going to say to him. I saw him, ran up to him and told him in the most venomous voice I could muster " GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. leave and never come back, you have ruined my body and my soul so leave. I will not have you roaming and ruining my life again so get out before I call the cops." he looked at me shocked for a moment, then he got red in the face " do not tell me when to leave this is my home!" so I ran to the phone snatched it up and left the house, the concrete floor was burning the palms of my feet in the summer heat but I didn't care I only had one goal in mind I dialed my moms number. " mom if you do not get rid of Charles then I am calling the police to tell them that you have denied even letting them know that I was raped by the man you are getting married to." she told me " ok I will get rid of him I promise" I rolled my eyes " I am not lying. at any moment I can call the cops and I already have someone willing to pick me up and move me to Ohio" the line was silent she started stumbling on her words " your leaving me? to whos home?!" " my real mothers." and I hung up the phone. next I dialed up the phone number I had remembered dialing countless other times. I was worried that it would be available yet but I felt better when it rung the first time... then the second ring she picked up the phone and in her groggy mad voice she said " hello?" I didn't think id get this far, "OH MY GOD THANK YOU FOR ANSWERING! its shay... wait you don't know me yet... damn it Michelle I miss you, are you guys living in Ohio now or have yall moved to Splendora yet? or maybe in Katy with maw maw?" "hum.. who the fuck is this?" "my name is shay... I know you don't have a lot of minutes on this phone but I have a lot to say so ill tell you part of it now and then if you trust me will you meet with me in a public place so I can tell you the rest?". "first tell me what it is you want to tell me" " in about two and a half years or so when Damien is a freshman in Taylor high school he will meet me, I'm a junior when he meets me. he meets me through his friend Ian, oh and by the way yes Ian turns out to be gay, i am a white girl who has had a pretty damn fucked up life. and I'm going through all the shit of being kicked out by my mom and living with my brother and I laid eyes on Damien and fell in love. me and him start dating October 23 on a Tuesday at 5:00 Pm, and even after three years of dating we still had yet to get tired of each other.. the summer after I meet him I move in to yals home, Billy living in the closet, Corey on a bunk bed with Damien, and you and Jason with all the dogs in the other room. stupid small apartment. me and Damien take over the living room with the queen sized mattress you had behind the table; in front of the mirror wall." "ok I am running out of minutes.. I will call you back whenever I get to a different phone" "alright bye" I turn my eyes to the sun and get really excited, I run back inside the house and get dressed in the nicest outfit I had, I eat some oatmeal in the kitchen and run outside heading towards my brothers house. I knock on his door and he answers "hey Jonathon I need a lift to Katy really bad could you please help me? il explain everything inside. I go inside and I tell him what i know of my future and that i woke up being 13 again then i tell him what I did that morning " I threatened to call the police on mom and Charles because they refuse to listen to me on moving Charles out.. oh I didn't tell you because i was scared but Charles raped me when i was seven. ya we will have to have e a deep long conversation about that but can we please have it on the way to Katy? also i can show you your future home and my God is it glorious." he blinks twice and looks at me ".. ok i truly think there's a reason you've become insane let go to Katy" he grabs his truck keys and we drive off towards Katy. " so you know the exact apartments they live in? "yes they live in the apartments on mason road right near dustins" " ok" we make it to Katy and I tell him the directions to his house first " this is where yall will be moving to two and a half years from now." we head towards the apartments next and since it was a Sunday the door was busted as always, we head inside and go towards Damien's apartment. i run up the stairs and knock hearing the barks of all the dogs makes me laugh Michelle answers the front door " hello!" she stares for moment confused "hello?..." " im shay I'm the girl from the phone, I'm sorry its rude for me to just drop by but i really needed to speak with you I'm sorry but i cant wait five more years again." " it feels weird not living with yall.. please save my phone number. can i speak with Damien?" "uhm ok.. DAMIEN COME HERE"