Terrifying New Start (On Hold)

Chapter Ten: Years to regret

I sat on the fire escape with my back to the window; just gazing up at the clear blue sky. I missed this a lot strangely. Tristan was asleep still and I just couldn\\\'t sleep. I\\\'ve been outside since four in the morning with my eyes on the sky.

Part of me wondered why I missed California so bad. I had spent most of it in the RV as a child, and a little on the beach with my notebook. Some might have thought that it was the perfect life. If you had to live it alone on the beach, you wouldn\\\'t think it was perfect.

I could hear Tristan in the living room, but I didn\\\'t turn to look in. My thoughts were preoccupied. The window behind me made a little squeak as it opened.

\"Whatcha doing out here, Regan?\" he asked with a bit of huskiness in his voice. You could tell that he had just woken up.

\"Watching the city...\" I murmured.

\"This is the fifth time you\\\'ve been out here. We\\\'ve only lived here five days so why do you always sit outside?\"

\"Nostalgia I guess...\" I trailed off when I saw a little girl and her mom walking out of a market with their hair in red bows. It was pretty cute.

\"Are you finally going to tell me your story? You backed out last time.\"

\"I was a-\"

\"You\'re going to tell me?\"

I turned to glare. \"If you stop talking I will.\"

He acted like he zipped his lips while I continued.

\"I was a little girl when my parents bought the RV. We used to live in a city with tall buildings and some neighbors with kids my age. When they first decided on moving, I was all for it. I didn\'t know that I\\\'d have to leave my friends behind.\" I looked up at Tristan with a little smile.

He nodded for me to continue.

\"My mom home schooled me while we traveled around and suddenly they changed from being the average parents that took their child to the movies, to parents that fed their daughter raw veggies. I didn\'t mind the first few years because I was so caught up in the adventure of it all.\"

\"But you did later on,\" Tristan said it like a statement.

\"Yes. I was thirteen and realized I didn\\\'t have a single friend. We traveled so much and never settled. I began writing then as an escape to another world. It was incredible to make characters that were so alive to me. Some may think it was almost like making an imaginary friend, but I thought of it like creating someone and their life...\"

He looked at me with a very warm smile. I wasn\\\'t used to Tristan being so nice to me. He normally would pick on me about something- which I didn\\\'t mind because I\'d get him back in some way or another.

\"I begged my mom to put me into public school because I wanted to be like the girls you read in books. I wanted to make friends the first day and maybe even date when I got into high school. She finally gave in and I began going to public school in this state. My parents didn\\\'t exactly explain school to me because they figured that I\'d always be that home schooled girl.

\"Now don\'t get me wrong; home schooling isn\'t bad or anything. I adored it for several years and it might not have been so bad if we lived somewhere like a real house. I was tired of moving around to the same places and feeling so lost in a crowd of people.\"

\"That\\\'s sad,\" he murmured and looked me in the eyes with his light blue eyes.

\"I\'m pitiful, I know. On the first day of public school, I showed up in my homemade long sleeved floral dress because my mom wanted me to wear it because she had made it for me and I couldn\\\'t say no. My hair was so short that it was to my jaw and I was a quiet girl. Basically no friends for the first few months of school. They made fun of me,\" I sighed dramatically before looking back at the beach.