THIS IS ME

Part 1

Hi my name is Skylar and I am sixteen years old. I have black hair and pale skin, like really, really REALLY pale skin. Anyhow I love wearing skinny (ripped) jeans and oversized sweaters and shirts, I have a lip ring and wear a necklace with a ring on. Oh have I mentioned that I am a boy? Well now that you know that let me tell you some other stuff...I usually never talk to people ... like ever! Except from in class, I have to answer my stupide teachers when they ask me questions or I won't get good grades ... ugh. I'm just going to tell you my story and I hope you will understand.

Monday morning, first hour day of a new year in school, in a new town, with new people, with a new family what could possibly go wrong? EVERYTHING!

My mom decided to go and live with her new boyfriend after she got pregnant, good job guys ... to make it even better the asshole has a son, and even bigger asshole if you ask me isn't that nice? To make a long story short I hate my (new)family, so I lock myself up in my room most of the time. I am currently getting ready for school. I luckily have my own bathroom attached to my bedroom. My bedroom walls are painted in dark purple, my favorite color, and I have grey wooden furniture. I grabbed my grey schoolbag full of pins from my favorite bands and looked in the mirror one last time. Yup this is me, black skinny jeans with a while shirt and black sleeveless sweater, together with black vans. I walked down the stairs when I bumped into my stepbrother. He didn't seem to care and walked into the kitchen. I was about to leave the house to get to school when my mom called me from the kitchen. I sight "Skylar I'm driving you boys to school so come and have breakfast with us" she said playing the happy family thing. I went to the kitchen and sat down. My mom gave me a plate with pancakes on and a cup of tea, it has been years since she made my breakfast last! I ate in silence and was grateful I had charged my iPod last night, I would definitely need it today.

When mom dropped us off at school I just went to my locker but not without plugging my headphones into my IPod and having them on my ears. I had done the paperwork the day my mom came to sign me up for this school so I knew my schedule and where my classes where. I was listening to hearts on fire by Black vail brides, my favorite band, when I reached my locker. Someone tapped on my shoulder and I was honestly considering to pretend I didn't notice. Eventually the person tapped on my shoulder again so I turned around, it was a girl. She was a bit shorter than me and had pink hair in two ponytails, she actually looked really nice. "hey I'm Lexi you must be Skylar?" I just nodded and she smiled. "want me to show you around?" I shook my head no. Lexi frowned "why not?" I just shrugged in response and opened my locker to take my books for the first lesson, science. I tried ignoring her but she pulled my headphones off my head. "hey what's wrong? I'm trying to be nice and you just ignore me...you don't even talk to me!" yup that's right and I won't deal with it girl. "Don't bother Lexi he never talks" great Cameron (my stepbrother) knew her and wouldn't stay away from me at school or so it seemed. I walked away and sat down in the back of my class. My teacher was already there and looked up at me "ah you must be Skylar?" I nodded. "good I hope you have looked into your books already, I have heard from the principal that you don't talk much or so your mother told him, as long as you do your homework and tasks properly we won't have problems with each other" with that said he sat back down and I went back to staring at my book, which I did the two hours I had science today isn't that nice?

I spend lunch break sitting alone in a corner, listening to music ignoring everyone. The rest of the day was actually a bit creepy, teachers being nice and telling me I didn't really had to speak, maybe it isn't that bad after all. I successfully ignored the glares and stares from people who wanted to get to know the "never talking guy". I went home by foot as Cameron had practice and my mom wanted me to wait for him so she could pick us up together. I entered the silent house and enjoyed the moment before I went upstairs to my room. I threw my bag on the floor and laid down on my bed. "to silent" I said to myself actually out loud. It's not healthy not to talk you now, it hurts your throat when you talk again after a while, like three days or so. I have to speak every once in a while but choose to do it when no one is around. I got up from my king sized bed and put my IPod in its docking station and sang along with the first song that start to play.

Look around

There's no one but you and me

Right here and now

The way it was meant to be

There's a smile on my face

Knowing that together everything that's in our way

We're better than alright

I danced around the room softly while placing my figures from my favorite anime's on the shelves of my glass cabinet.

Walking between the raindrops

Riding the aftershock beside you

Off into the sunset

Living like there's nothing left to lose

Chasing after gold mines

Crossing the fine lines we knew

Hold on and take a breath

I'll be here every step

Walking between the raindrops with you

I went to my bed and laid down on it, closing my eyes when I continued to sing.

Take me now

The world's such a crazy place

When the walls come down

You'll know I'm here to stay

There's nothing I would change

Knowing that together everything that's in our way

We're better than alright

Walking between the raindrops

Riding the aftershock beside you

Off into the sunset

Living like there's nothing left to lose

Chasing after gold mines

Crossing the fine lines we knew

Hold on and take a breath

I'll be here every step

Walking between the raindrops with you

There's a smile on my face

Knowing that together everything that's in our way

We're better than alright

Walking between the raindrops

Riding the aftershock beside you

Off into the sunset

Living like there's nothing left to lose

Chasing after gold mines

Crossing the fine lines we knew

Hold on and take a breath

I'll be here every step

Walking between the raindrops with you

Between the raindrops with you

Between the raindrops with you

I even sang Natasha Bedingfield's high notes. I was so concentrated on the song that I didn't hear Cameron in who spoke up just before I could sing the last part. "nice voice you should speak more often...or sing". Cameron chuckled and walked into my room closing the door.

I sat up and honestly I was almost pissing myself. I crawled back till I was hidden in my pillows and almost fell out of bed. "why are you so scared of talking?" Cameron asked and I just hung my head in response. "tell me I won't tell anyone" I shook my head no, he could ask as much as he wanted I would never tell him in fact I would never tell anyone. Cameron sat down on my bed and laid his warm hand on mine which I pulled back.

"are you scared of me?" that was the one question I had no answer too, so I just shrugged it off and got up when mom called us down for dinner. I can't tell him what happened to me, not now not ever.