-x-Suicidal romance-x-
She griped the cold steel blue gun to her chest, her breath came in uneven quick gasps, the pain was shooting through her mind, but not the pain from a bullet. The pain of the memories she was finally allowing herself to remember. The memories of the past weeks of torture that she had endured from a mysterious cause, the torture of which would now result in her suicide.
'She can't of...it wasn't suicide...it can't of been...she was happy, or at least she was last time I saw her' Beth's last memory of her and Susan was when she had walked her to the station before Susan's departure back to her little home on the coast, she hadn't suspected anything was wrong or at least not then.
'I know it feels like that but you must realize the last time you saw her was almost two months ago, I'm sorry for your loss but I can assure you that it was suicide'
The policeman did realize how close her and Susan had been but he wasn't taking her comments seriously enough to have further investigation, it may have been two months since they saw each other but they spoke nearly every day,she wasn't depressed and Beth knew it.
Beth walked along side the yellow safety stripe on the platform floor, she didn't like walking through the old station at night but she was already late and it was the quickest way home, the way the trees hung over the rails and caused weird shadows to appear over the platform scared her.
The station had graffiti over the old tunnel and the posts and gears had been torn away, 'if you tripped it could be a matter of life and death' Beth thought to herself. The place was meant to of been sectioned off years ago but the council had more important things to spend money on than the safety of the community.
'Beth where have you been we've been so worried about you' Beth was almost 16 and lived with her best friend and her older sister, Beth's
Father had died in a car accident and her Mother had committed suicide when she found out, Beth was only three at the time and didn't remember them very well. It was Mary who always worried about her being out at night but she was the closest she had to a parent.
'Sorry I lost track of time' Beth didn't want to go into the details of where shed been, she knew that Mary was concerned at her being at the police station every day and she didn't want to hear the daily speech of why she needs to move on again.
'I'm tired I'm going to bed, I will see you in the morning'
Beth knew this was a quick escape out of what her sister was going to throw at her next, shed had a eventful day and didn't need hassle from her too.
'no hunny you wont see me, remember I told you I was going to start work again tomorrow. Night!!'
Mary shouted after Beth as she made her way up the spiral staircase.
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ok guys I hope you enjoy the first chapter of suicidal romance, I would love to know what you think because I'm planning on reusing this story for part of my year 11 coursework so its fairly important if you can find anyway I can improve or give me inspiration please comment I think I need your help more than anything at the moment. I need to know how much this is liked (majorly) I'm really stressed at the moment so please vote to tell me if I need to restart or carry on.
Thank you guys so much I really appreciate your help xxx
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