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my life

hello sorry i havent been able to write i have been really busy doing other stuff but hey im back lol

so i am 16 my birthday was on april 14th.. but now i am at the end of the school year and im really sad i am going to be losing my best friend he means alot to me but hey its life i have to learn how to deal with it so i am at school right now listening to sound of silence by disturbed..and yea so i am so bored.

me and my friends always hang out when ever we can but todays gonna be diffrent i can just tell. i dont want my life to change i dont want people to walk out of my life and i deffinatly dont want to lose my best friend . but it looks like i am so yea great i hope no one ever forgets about me cause the people i am friends with has changed my life so much that i would never go back to the old me. 

so people tell me that i need to change for the better so i changed and they tell me that they dont like the way i have changed they tell me that i have ruined ever thing for them and im starting to believe it i dont know what to do with my life any more to many people hate me now and i dont know y any more it seems like i cant do any thing right any more and it seems to be all my fault

so many people think that im a mistake which i am cause i was never suppose to be born but hey gods doing what he wants with me. so i got into a fight kinda with haley my old friend but my friend ships never last as you all can tell. but hey breyana is now my best friend again at least that is a plus .but im letting god take control of me what he wants to happen is gonna happen i hope every one understand that..im trying to do my best to make things right with people but i cant any more 

since after i well im not gonna talk about it but ever since i did some thing cause of some one my anger has been out of control and i cant seem to control it any more so if your one of my friends and ur reading this now u understand. 

so dont start stuff with me until you know the whole story.im tired and in pain i have no one to run to any more and its cause every one keeps walking out on me and i dont know how to make it stop. its not my fault and yea sorry for any one i have ever hurt.

ill update this when i can thanks :)