Between Love and Hate (Julian Casablancas fanfic)

Sad smiles

I was woken up from small kisses on my nose and eyes and cheeks. I slowly opened my eyes and smiled at Julian "morning Cass" he said in a raspy voice so I kissed him
"God I love your morning voice, it's so sexy" I said sitting on his lap and he looked at my naked body, taking in everything. I laid my head on his chest as it was kinda early and I was still tired. "Can I take a shower here?" I asked
"only if I can join" he laughed and I shrugged my shoulder letting him. I stood up with Julian and went to his bathroom which was lucky in his room so I turned on the water. Once I stepped inside Julian followed along getting in with me, I closed my eyes as I felt the warm water hit my skin. When I opened them I saw Julian staring at me with a smile
"What are you smiling about" I laughed
"I was just admiring your beauty and how cute you look, god I'm gonna miss you" he said pulling me into a hug
"You have a sexy back, do you know that" I laughed trying to lighten the mood and he smiled kissing me
"And you have a beautiful personality" he said through the kiss
"Aww oh jeez that's actually really sweet" I said giving him kisses
"You're really sweet" he winked at me
"Jules stop it if you keep it up I'm gonna have you back in that bed, and I'm already sore from yesterday" I laughed wrapping my arms around his neck so he placed his hands on my lower back, he giving me small kisses
"I'm sorry baby I was just trying to make you feel good" he whispered in my ear
"It's fine" I laughed. We finished taking a shower and got out. "Well fuck" I said pulling on my dress again
"Why are you putting your dress back on" he asked
"Because I don't have a bra or else I would have worn one of your shirts" I said putting my hair into a bun and he laughed at me then pulled me into a kiss.
"Lets make breakfast!" Julian said skipping to the kitchen so I laughed following him. He started to make eggs with toast
"Wow that's the first time you've actually made something that wasn't just cereal" I laughed at him and he gave me a dirty looked. Albert came in looked at me with a confused expression
"Why are you wearing your dress from last night" Albert asked
"I don't have a bra or else I would have worn one of Julian's shirts" I said
"Hot" he teased and I flipped him off biting into my food. Well now that the media knows in with Julian now I can post pictures of me being and Julian on my Twitter account. I opened it and saw I had a shit ton more followers than I did before. 'What the fuck' I thought and saw people retweeting things from me and adding how they love me and then some hate comments but I honestly didn't give a flying fuck. I took a picture of my food and captioned "Hey would you look at that, Jules didn't just make me cereal for once 😂" and I sent it and getting favourites and retweets from people instantly. I then took another one of shirtless Julian captioning it "What a lovely morning indeed ❤️" and tweeting getting people tweeting at me "AHHH THANKS FOR BLESSING MY EYES!" and others like that so I laughed
"What are you laughing about?" Julian asked coming towards me taking my phone seeing a took a sneaky picture of him, he took out the camera app and started to give me sloppy kisses while taking pictures so I screamed. He stopped and looked at the pictures posting one, I looked and saw that the one he picked was me smiling and laughing with my eyes closed and him kissing me and the caption said "You can't take sneaky pictures of me without getting caught, so this is pay back 😏 - Julian" and I got a lot of favourites and retweets also along with a lot of hate but people were defending me so that was nice.
"Morning everyone" Nick said stretching and he was also shirtless so I looked away and said
"Sup" biting into my toast
"why are you wear a dress from last night" he asked ruffling my hair and stealing Julian's toast
"is everyone gonna ask me this question" I laughed "maybe I just want to look fabulous in the morning huh" "no it's because I don't have a bra" I said and Nick smirked at me so I slapped his arm "jeez can I go one day without you guys playfully flirting with me" I said rolling my eyes
"Nope" Albert winked at me stealing the rest of my toast so I scoffed at him I then proceeded to laugh really loud till I was crying "why are laughing so hard" Albert chuckled at me crying
"Because. You. And. Nick. Stole. Our. Toast" I got out at first then laughed at thinking what I'm about to say "so I can just imagine you guys wearing masks and all black breaking into houses at night just stealing peoples toast" I laughed even harder and tears were streaming down my face, I tried to stop but breathing in deep to catch my breath only made me laugh louder because it sounded like I was wheezing.
"Cass it's not that funny" Julian laughed because my face was turning red from laughing so hard, I laid my head on the counter still laughing and the others laughed at me. Julian came over to me and grabbed my face so I looked at him still laughing so he placed his lips on my collarbone and nibbled it. I sucked in my breath
"Oh my god" I breathed out
"And that's how you get someone to stop laughing" Julian said
"That was a moan" Albert said to me
"No it wasn't I was just exhaling" I said crossing my arms over my chest
"That was totally a moan Cass" Nick said so my face got hot
"I can assure you that it wasn't" I said and Fab and Nikolai came out into where we were
"Dude don't you think that was a moan" Albert laughed to Fab and Nikolai so they had confused looks asking what was
"Going 'oh my god' isn't that a moan?!" Albert said reenacting how I said it
"That was a moan" Nikolai chuckled so Fab and Me blushed
"Go shove the toast you stole from us up your ass you sluts" I shot at them and they pretended to be hurt so I flipped them off as Julian laughed at the situation. Julian took my plate and put in the sink as I finished my breakfast so I thanked him. He came over to me and kissed me
"I love you" he said thought the kiss
"I....I love you too Julian" I said and Julian pulled me in for a passionate kiss as it was the first I've ever said I loved him so I smiled into the kiss and kissed harder. He broke the kiss and looked at me then looked at the guys looking at us then smiled pulling me with into his room. I smiled as Nick wolf whistled and then Julian pushed me onto his bed doing things 🌚// I wasn't bothered to put the dress back on so I just pulled one of Jules shirt on
"I have one of your bras here by the way" Julian said throwing it at me
"You had one of my bras here the whole time but you didn't bother to tell me" I glared at him
"I wanted to see you in that dress one more time" he said pulling in for a kiss so I slapped him then kissed him again
"Between love and hate" I smiled as it's one of his songs and he pushed me onto the bed "we can't have sex all day" I said
"I beg to differ" he said entering me again so went at it again// I washed my sweaty face and fixed my bun putting on my bra and underwear throwing on one of Julian's shirt. I walked out into the main area with Julian and Albert smirked at me
"Had fun" he teased
"Much fun" I said walking funny
"Why are you walking weirdly" asked Nikolai
"Must have been really good huh" Nick winked at me so I flipped him off
"So good" Julian replied so I softly hit his arm blushing
"I'm gonna miss the sweet sex we have when you leave" I whispered in his ear so he kissed me
"Woah okay that's a first from you when did you become dirty" he said and the guys looked at me so I smack his arm
"Can't you keep anything between us" I laughed
"Nope, kind of like how you need to bite down on the edge of the pillow to stop you from moaning so loud because I make you feel so good" he growled so I blushed coughing to make it less awkward for me. Nick came close to my ear
"I bet he makes you feel so good making you moan so loud huh, I bet he goes all the way in making you cum so hard" Nick growled in my ear and I blushed extremely hard with my mouth ajar
"Uuuuuh" I said as I turned even more red as Albert said
"I bet he makes you cum so hard and so wet"
"Woah 5 guys at once must be fun huh" Julian said and I let out an awkward laugh "we are just kidding Cass by the way" he laughed and so did the rest and I stayed quiet "I'm sorry babe I didn't mean to make you mad" he said kissing me
"It had seemed like you guys were peer pressuring me into doing something I didn't want to do" I awkwardly laughed and they all hugged me
"We wouldn't do that Cassi" Albert said ruffling my hair, giving me a new nickname
"Plus that would hurt like a bitch, like there is only 3 place so where would the other 2 go" I laughed and Fab started choking on saliva and the others laughed
"Take turns obviously" Julian said laughing
"True" I laughed and I gave Fab some water to stop him "you okay?" I chuckled and he blushed nodding his head
"We should started packing guys we leave tomorrow afternoon" Nikolai said so my face fell. Julian gently carcasses my face so I took in a deep breath and faked a smile
"Why don't I help you" I said standing up stretching and walked with him to his room 
"Look I'm sor-" Julian got out before I interrupted him
"It's okay, it's your job Jules" I said pulling him into a hug, twirling his hair around my finger, and giving him soft kisses.
"I promise to come right back to you when we are done touring" he said kissing me so I kissed back with melancholic eyes. He handed me some clothes as I said I would fold them for him. A couple of hours pasted and we finished packing all his things he needed
"Can you take me home" I said pulling off Julian shirt and my bra pulling on my dress and he nodded grabbing his keys and I slipped on my shoes waving a small bye to everyone as I walked out. We got inside my apartment and I kicked off my shoes and dragged Julian to my bed. I pulled off my bra and underwear pulling on new ones then snuggled into Julian in bed. He wrapped his arms around me placing his chin on top of my head kissing me. I smack his bum and he smiled at me "who's smacking who now" I laughed and he squeezed mine kissing me
"Pretty equal if you ask me" he smirked so I laid my head on his chest tracing the outline if his chest while he rubbed circles and shapes on my ass. "I don't want to leave you" he said kissing me "what if you come with us on tour!" He said excitedly
"I can't Julian I'm sorry, I have work" I said with a gloomy look and he pouted "I'll call you or you'll call me when you aren't busy"
"I love you" he said wrapping his arms around me and squeezed me
"I love you too" I said
"Wanna go out to eat since it's only the afternoon?" He asked so I nodded my head and got ready to leave

~~~sorry I haven't been writing often it's just school is a bitch and this is the busiest months for us so yah I'll try to update more often but idk if I can keep that promise~~~