secret grier | shawn mendes

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unless i say its in jocelyns pov
so i woke up to skylynn jumping on my bed yelling "can u make me food" "sure lets go" i was in a Calvin Klein sports bra and some nike pros i didnt think anything of it bc i have makeup over my scars and i am a cheer leader and gymnyast. i pick up skylynn and walk down the stairs and hear talking in the kitchen. "sky whos in there" i say nervous "nash and hayes and there friends" i put her down and was about to make a run for it but i wasnt fast enough. i have never met his friends. he keeps me hiden. i was at the stairs but one of them walked through the door. i dont like being around boys other than nash and hayes and my 2 dads bc of my abusive boyfriend chad. then the guy said "NASH HAYES ummm why is there a 10 y/o girl in your house" they all walked through the door i was slowly backing up untill i hit a wall "damn it jocelyn" nash screamed i flinched "skkyyylllyyynnnn jjusssttt waaannttteeddd meee tooo maakkke hhherrrr sooommmeee fooodddd" i said low hayes ran over to me bc hes the only one who knows about chad but he doesnt know everything other than that. "nash stop screaming at her do u want her to live in that room for the rest of her life" he picked me up bc as he says i only weigh as much as skylynn. im 75 pounds. ik thats discusting and ugly. my goal is 50 to 40. he sat on the couch me curled up in his arms "ok can we know whats going on now" one of them said "nash care to do the honors" hayes said with a smirk "shes my little sister and hayes twin sister" he said with a sigh "what did i do to you i always stay in my room alone for weeks at a time sometimes and you are completly blind to whats going on in my life bc if you knew you sure damn well wouldnt put me in a situation like this" i finally blew up "jocelyn do you want me to tell him" "hayes you dont even know whats fully going on no one does mom dad no one. everykne is compltley oblivious to everything i do. i could kill myself and no one would notice. dont worry ive already tried and guess who ened up helping me OUR 4 YEAR OLD SISTER she doesnt even know how to spell her own name but she sure as hell knows to not leave me alone for to long. you guys dont even know me. i must be one meast up descrase to be invisable." with that i walked to the basement (her room is upstairs).  aka my home gym for gymnastics and cheer and a half a soccer felid. i make quite a bit of money from my sports im also quite famous but nash and hayes dont know i go and put my grips on and go to the bars i start doing my routine then after i went and did 2 valts i thought i heared my door open a few times when i first come down here but idk and idc then i went and did my whole floor routine (too lazy too type name of flips and sequences) then did my beam then walked over to my half soccer feild and did some tricks and then i did a hand stand and walked on my hands back to my bars then i turned on some music and did about 300 push ups in 4 mins or so then i looked behind me and they were all just standing there. "when did we get this" "8 years ago you would know that if you paid attention to anything i do cheer gymnastics and soccer btw how long were you there" "the whole time" "so who are these people" "jack g jack j or jj cameron or cam matt taylor aaron shawn carter jacob" " can u explain what hayes wanted to tell me" then someone was banging on the door i looked at hayes by now i am in the living room i opened the door to get slaped by chad then he punched me in the gut i started crying quietly he just beat me then picked me up and slammed me on the table he grabbed me and carried on with what he was doing until shawn walked upstairs and tackeled him off of me and shawn hit him and trew him out and locked the door mean while i was curled up in the coner the makeup was off of my wrist by now i dont care who sees

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