I couldn't believe what had just happened. My best friend and I are most likely not friends anymore, and tears started to well up in my eyes.
"Oh my gosh Clare..." Josh spoke. He was an interesting friend, I was conflicted with how I felt towards him at first considering the fact that he had straight up admitted that he was sexually attracted to me. At first I was kind of scared of him, but got to know him better, and now I trust him completely.
I'd invited him and my.. "Best friend" to come hang out, but things went wrong, and now the only person in my room was Josh.
"Clare, it's going to be fine, I know you guys, you'll befriends again." He told me.
"I trust that we could be... But I don't know if I ever want to be again. That was too terrible. Even if we did become friends again, we'd never be best friends again, and it would be impossible for us to share the same bonds we did..."
I walked over and slumped in the chair next to me and he rubbed my shoulder. The tears that had been weld up in my eyes were starting to break free and they slid down the slope of my face as I stared at the door. I turned to face Josh and he was staring at me with eyes of sympathy. Not being able to control myself, I reached out across the chairs and wrapped my arms around his neck and placed my head on his shoulders.
Josh froze and I felt him tense up. "I don't care anymore" I told him, "I don't care... I just need someone right now, please."
He stretched out and grabbed the bottom of my thy's and pulled me fully into his legs. "Cry all you want Clare, if you want someone here for you, I'll be here." He wrapped his left arm around my back, and rubbed me from my legs to my back, back and forth.
My tears were long shed and dried, but Josh remained there rubbing me, and I had moved into a ball so my head was tested against his chest.
"Cl-Clare?" He choked.
"Yes...?" I responded.
"Well... I told you I was only sexually attracted to you, but that's a lie. I actually love you, and although I am kind of sexually attracted to you, I mainly said that because I was scared you might find out I had a crush on you if I didn't say something to throw that idea off you're thoughts."
I glanced up at his face with the most thoughtful eyes in the world and spoke, "No matter what you would have told me, it was some how still pretty obvious that you had some real feelings for me."
"It was?" He asked, and I responded with a yup. But I smiled, the best thing of today is him.
With hesitance he asked, "Well, do you, feel anything for me?"
I stared at the ground for a minute thinking about how to respond, but might have thought too long because he looked nervous with regret.
"Josh." He glanced at me, "Don't worry. I love you too." I could see all his regret wash away, and he smiled, the most beautiful smile I had ever seen. Josh's features were attractive in his own way, and I never noticed it until now. His bone structure was amazing, somewhat boxy, but still rounded like an oval, and his eyes were bright brown, if that's possible, filled with joy and love. And dark brown a riffed up hair, not too long, and not too short.
"I never realized my feelings for you until today, I got to know you because your personality interested me when we first met. Then you told me you were sexually attracted to me, and I was somehow more interested, but trying to play it safe, because I still didn't really know you. Not a lot of guys ever pay attention to me... So I guess it kind of made me happy in a way that you were at least attracted to me in some way, and you're always so kind." I explained to him.
"Clare, you wanna know why the guys never pay attention to you?" I looked up to him with curious eyes, "well, it's because you're beautiful and amazing in every way, and they all have crushes on you, but are too afraid to talk to you." He paused staring at me with intense and caring eyes, "Clare, will you be my girlfriend?"
I smiled, "of course I will" I said pushing my self up and kissing him.
