Forever Lost

This is one of my earliest writings. Wrote it quite a while back. It may not live up to your expectations after my first poem(from what I gathered from the feedbacks) but give it a try anyway!

It's dedicated to LunarScholar. She's really great and a TALENTED writer Mashaa'Allah! And also a very good friend!^__^ check out her works, I promise you won't regret it!

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In the midst of dark at night I lay-

Toss and turn in my bed and pray,

Mom where are you, are you okay?

Your sweet smiling face keeps playing in my head,

And it takes me back through memory lane-

All the echoes of laughter that are now fade;

Still the shadows of past are what keep me sane.

 Now days are bleak and nights are long,

Missing you is my constant companion.

Your hazel eyes so nice so kind,

Your magic touch that never lied.

My world has lost its cheer and glow-

So now I let the tears flow.

How could you go leaving me alone to face-

A life that's so empty and grey,

Without your love and care to guide my way.

Can't you see it hurts so much!

The dull ache in my heart that would never pass-

Forever and more, till I breathe my last.

I would give anything to hear your laughter one more time,

To have you back and say, "Oh, darling you'll be just fine!"

It's hard to accept that there's no one left,

To take away my pains and put me to rest.

Oh! how I wish to be back in your arms,,

Hug you close and feel your warmth,

Breathe in your scent and say-

"I love you" again and again and again.

To every corner that I turn,

Your mark is there as bright as the sun,

My heart just stops, it yearns for your return.

Who will now hold my hand,

Through all the pains I cannot stand?

And tell me I have nothing to fear,

That Lord doesn't give us more than we can bear.

Who will teach me right and wrong?

Kiss my forehead keep me strong,

In times it feels too hard to go on.

Oh Lord give me one more chance!

To make up for the times I pained her much.

For the times I took her for granted,

Showed annoyance even though I was the one who faulted.

Even through my pleas I can see the truth-

That you are gone and gone for good.

In a place for eternity and more,

And even my desperate wishes won't bring you back home.

They say you're in a better place

In the hands of Almighty who loves you best.

So wait for me Ma, I will be there,

As soon as my work is done here.

Even though my heart is breaking, I smile through my pain-

Dreaming of the day we will re-unite again.

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Let me know what you think!

Jazakallahu Khairun for reading^__^