Unwanted- A Felicite Tomlinson Fanfic

Part 26

Ok so before I start this I just need to say my school will be starting on August 12th (tomorrow). I really want to keep up with school this year (first year of high school) and I need to really focus on math, which I suck at. Of course I update this every Sunday so this story shouldn't be a problem to continue updating. But if I have like some huge project that I need to finish on Sunday our some test I will have to either update later on in the week or next Sunday. Hope you guys understand!

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Nightmares have haunted my dreams for years. Maybe since Louis left? The only good thing I ever dreamed of was Louis returning home. It's kind of obvious I dreamed about mum finding me. I was scared of her. Such a coward! Why couldn't I be like Lottie, Daisy, or Phebe? They were already so comfortable. Those girls cared about me. But I was just so weak.

I decided to go downstairs to get a cup of tea. Maybe it would calm me. I krept silently down the hall. But not silently enough. I heard a soft voice coming from Liam's room. "Who's there?" I stopped moving all together, hoping Liam would go back to sleep. But he didn't. He got straight out of bed and came into the hall. "Felecite, what on earth are you doing! Do you know what time it is?"

I nodded my head. "I had a nightmare. I was going to get a cup of tea." "Oh..." Liam said. "Well I'll come with you, I do make good tea." Why couldn't he just leave me alone? When we got downstairs Liam opened a cabinet, revealing tons and I mean TONS of different flavors of tea. "Any preferences?" "Wow, you really like tea." Was all I said. HE laughed. "I'll take raspberry."

After about five minutes I had my tea and we were both heading back upstairs. "Hey Felecite, you didn't look to happy at the dinner table. Was something bothering you?" "No." I said, not wanting him to worry. "Alright...well then goodnight." HE said after some hesitation. "Goodnight." I said and then headed to my room.

Well that was awkward. I sighed and looked out the window. The stars were so pretty. I gently pushed the window sill up and stepped out on the roof, grabbing a blanket to wrap up in. I sat there for a while, just thinking and looking at the sky when I heard the sound of another window opening. "Lottie?" I asked. "Hey." She replied, climbing out of her window.

"So Louis talked to you." She said. "Lottie why would you tell him about me? Isn't that my business to tell?" "I'm just worried about you Felecite, I thought he would be able to help. Everyone needs someone to talk to and I thought you would talk to him since you don't talk to me." I was silent for a while. "I appreciate your concern but I can handle things on my own."

"You're not handling anything on your own. You will continue to use that blade and continue to starve if you don't get help. And I don't know about you but I don't like watching my sister slowly kill herself." How was I supposed to reply to that? "Lottie the blade takes away the pain, it calms me down. As for the food, I'm going to go on a diet with Harry." She sighed. "I'm glad you are beginning to eat again and I guess that will have to do for now but eventually I hope you will come to your senses about that." She said looking down at my wrist.

Then she went inside and left me with my own thoughts. That was never a safe thing. My mind could drive me mad. I slowly found myself drifting to sleep. When I woke up the sun was shining brightly in my eyes. Time for another day. I thought pathetically as I woke up.