Would You Believe Me?

Dear Diary

This question just keeps coming back to me and when I answer I get the same reactions.

It was a high school party, EVERYONE was there, is was a time for the unpopular people like myself  to make a name for themselves. Even tho I didn't need to cos I got the looks you know😏 nah I'm just playing😂 everyone was intoxicated and the girls were out of control. It was like a big jamaican rave, the guys were daggering the girls like mad- nonstop. It was crazy late so I took my final drink, hennessy of course. ( I was supposed to be a designated driver) haha i think that plugs been pulled. the party was getting boring so i screamed "spin the bottle". Me and Devinety had to get in the closet, the rusty, dusty meagre closet. Devenity was a, shall we say, loose girl, she was smothering me and she was already half naked, so I'm thinking "damn this girls moving fast, she needs to catch her life before she catches these hands" she got in trouble with the police and she was on curfew but it was past. Lmaoo she probably slept with her probation worker. Pussy can get you anything nowadays. But anyways, she's irrelevant, back to the story. I didn't do nothing with her because shes been around with the wrong crowd and I didn't wanna catch chlamydia 💀💀. So I suggested that we played truth or dare. That was a bad decision.....
"Truth or dare trill you have to answer" so i thought to myself, "truth, it's always best to choose truth" ughhhhh no its not. "So trill, what was your longest sexual encounter??" Asked khali as she winked at me. This is the dreaded moment for me, i hate answering this question, but here we go. "Um...I'm....A.....virgin" I try to slur my words so she didn't understand but everyone heard. The room fell silent, the music stopped playing, it cut like a scratched CD. Everyone's jaws dropped and let out a gasp. khalis drink dropped to the floor. It was like one big melodramatic play.
"WHAT?!?!?!"
"You don't look like one"
"How in the hell- what?"
See, exactly like I said same answers every time. It never changes so I'm used to it. And how the fuck do you look like a virgin? These questions are stupid.

"TRILL ARE YOU GAY?!?!?!" said khali.
"Um yeah but what does that have to do with anything" I snapped.

When people find out that I'm gay they leave me, especially guys. Like what's the issue you homophobic pricks?. And they can't cuss me because 99.9% of boys in my school are highkey moving with gay antics so I just call them straggots, it's easier. And the girls. Oh don't even get me started. I just wonder why, when girls see me with makeup on they feel the need to comment on it. Like back all the way off. "Your contour is too harsh" "your eyebrows are too thick"
No. don't come for me when u look disgusting & your weave looks expired. I can remove most of your ARTIFICIAL beauty with a wet wipe. And you're so poor you sell your pussy on the road and live off food scraps that your friends give you. girls simmer down.

Dear diary,
Thanks for listening