The Diary of a Depressed Girl

The Voice In My Head

Dear Diary,

I've found that there's this voice inside my head that gives me un encouraging messages. These messages include remarks such as "You'll never find true love," and "You'll be depressed forever, just give up already." I recently had a break down, worrying that one day I will kill myself, even though I don't want to. I truly do want to live through these rough bumps in my life, but it just keeps getting harder and harder as I go along.

I know I'll eventually have to talk to someone about my depression, but I believe that if I keep writing, that eventually, I won't have to. To be honest, I don't want to talk to anyone. Sure, I've openly spoke about my depression to someone, but I'm not ready for anyone else to know. Being my awkward, anti-social self, I've figured out over the years that not everyone is comfortable with telling everyone everything. But recently, I've been semi happy.

Ever since I've had a dream fantasizing about myself ACTUALLY finding the love of my life, I've found myself being happier and healthier. I stopped pinching myself (my safer act of self harm), and I've seen myself smiling more and forgetting about all my problems. I say an adorable couple hugging the other day, and I've also started reading a romance book. I've finally found a pretty good cure, love. Maybe I'd fully be cured if I found the love of my life, but until then, I've got to deal with my depression and find ways to help myself through it.

Thanks for listening,

A.M.F