Teen Wolf Imagines

You Messed Up - Pack Imagine

Prompt - You're blamed for Allison's death by the pack and yourself.

Word Count - 1009

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The gloom of the day was already getting to me. It was my favorite type of weather, rainy, with clouds filling the sky. Today it felt different though. It didn't make me happy like it usually did.

I was on my way to Scott's house for a pack meeting. I know I had screwed up. I lead the Nogitsune right passed our plan, and now Alison was dead. It was hard enough to bare the thought of helping the Nogitsune, but baring the thought of helping it kill my bestfriend? It was to much to handle already.

I walked into the door seeing the rest of the pack already sat down on the couches in the living room. They all held their heads low, with grief covering their faces, and sadness in their eyes almost making them look expressionless. Scott was the first one to acknowledge my presence.

"Where have you been Y/N?" Scott stood up from his couch, rubbing his face with his cracked hands.

"I walked. I needed to clear my mind somehow." I said shrugging still holding my hands in the pockets of my coat.

"Y/N. We need to talk." He suddenly become stern. I could see the anger in his eyes and the way he was holding his enclosed fists at his sides. Everyone looked at us with blank faces, still emotionless.

"Then let's talk." I brought my hands out of my pockets and held them in each other trying to warm them up after the walk through the rain. I was scared of what he had to say. I didn't want to ruin anything else in my life.

"You messed up," I was shocked. He didn't give me the chance to talk before he spoke again. "You messed up! You were supposed to lead the Nogitsune and the Oni away! Do you realize what you've done?! Y/N, how are we supposed to trust you anymore?!"

I held eye contact with him, showing no emotion while on the inside I was a wreck. I was untrustworthy. The rest of the pack started to stand. "Scott, you need to calm down." Stiles coaxed him whilst standing in between us, but Scott and I still held our eye contact.

"No Stiles!" His hands were flaying everywhere at this point as he started to walk over to me. "You! Y/N! You're the reason she's dead! And you could be the reason the rest of us die!" He pushed his index finger onto my chest whilst he yelled more and more, "You're weak! You couldn't get a single thing right, could you?! Why are you even a part of this pack at this point?!" His face showed true anger as he screamed at me. I was trying not to let it show but his words were all true, all breaking me down syllable by syllable.

"Scott you need to shut up right now," Lydia stood steady, but so did you.

Everything he yelled was true, it really was. It was my biggest fear for this day to finally come. The one where I got kicked out of the pack by Scott. Where I'd have to find a way to live alone again. But I continued to listen, holding high, trying to pretend the words didn't affect me. Trying to not cry, I've never cried in front of the pack, and frankly, I couldn't even remember the last time I've cried at all before Allison's passing.

"You're a useless human! At least Stiles is smart! At least he can make a plan and stick to it! At least he's brave!" He went on yelling and screaming at me as the pack tried to calm him down, pulling him out of my face.

I couldn't take it anymore. I tried to hold it in, but soon I felt tears go down my face, and everyone stared at me. "You're right Scott." My voice barely came out, but I finally let my face and eyes show all the emotion, show everything I'd been holding back. "I'm weak. I'm not smart, I'll never be as smart as Stiles or Lydia. Hell I'm not even attractive enough to be used as bait. I'll never be as strong as you, Derek or Isaac. But I tried my best! And I know it didn't work Scott! It's my fault Allison is dead! I know that, and now I have to live with it!" I felt my breathing become abnormal and my voice scratch my throat but I kept going. "If it's what you want, I won't come back. I won't get involved with you or the rest of the pack for as long as you want, as long as you do the same for me." My heart was pounding so hard maybe even Stiles could hear it. I couldn't breath. Everything was crashing on me all at once. The rest of them just looked at me. They didn't say anything, they just stared as I stood there and cried into my words. "I'll take that as my time to leave." I continued with my raggedy breath.

I wiped your tears and fled outside into the cold foggy air. It was just hitting you, what was happening. I lost my pack, even if I was human, they were my pack. I didn't know what to do, so I just ran. I ran as far as I could. As far as I could from them. It was all my fault. I was the one who had gotten Allison killed. Scott's words wouldn't stop echoing though my head. I was untrustworthy. I was worthless. I was stupid. I was the reason Allison was killed, and I could be the reason the rest of them die.

He was right on this one. I messed up, and now I'm going to pay for it.

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Wow, first imagine. Tell me what you guys think about it? And maybe if you want a part two?