If You Knew the Truth

Breaking Your Own Heart

Chapter 32
( 2 days later )
Rachels pov :
Its been a couple of days since Shelby left . I've been all by myself since then . I kind of just shut everyone out I think I just need to be alone right now. Finn has been really trying to talk to me but I just can't talk to him , I just don't think he understands what I'm going through right now and I don't want him to worry. I was at my locker when someone wrapped there arms around me ,

"Hey beautiful." Finn said kissing his cheek.

"Hey Finn." I said moving away from him.

"You okay ? " He asked me.

"Yeah I'm fine." I said lying.

He sighed and said,

"I know you Rachel and you're not okay." He told me.

"Who are you to tell me whether or not I'm okay!" I said irritated.

"Woah calm down Rach." He said.

"No I'm sick of this ! I'm not some helpless person who needs you by her side every single time something happens! " I yelled furiously at him.

"I'm sorry I'm just trying to help you." He told me.

"Well don't!" I yelled furiously at him and I slammed my locker and left .

Quinns pov :
It's been a couple of weeks since my ultrasound and I still haven't decided whether or not I'm going to keep the baby. I was at my locker when I heard shouting it sounding like Rachel and Finn we're fighting. I watched as Rachel yelled at him , she's been so upset lately with Shelby leaving it was only a matter of time before she let all that anger go. She stormed away into the girls bathroom and I watched as Finn slammed his hand on the locker. I followed Rachel into the girls bathroom.

"Rachel , are you in here?" I asked her.

"No." She said from the first stall.

"Come on out it's just me." I told her.

The stall opened and a teary eye Rachel came out and gave me a hug and cried .

"It's okay I gotcha girl." I said hugging her.

She wiped her tears and said,

"I'm sorry I just I...." She could barely get words out.

"I know." I said.

She calmed down a couple later and said,

"How much of the fight did you see?" I asked her.

"Everything." I told her.

"I feel like such a bitch. Finn was just trying to be a good boyfriend like always and I blew it . I don't deserve him." She told me.

"You know one thing that will never change about Finn?" I asked her.

"What?" She asked.

"Thay no matter how bad things get between you two he will always love you because your his girlfriend. " I told her.

"I feel so selfish , he treats me with so much respect and here I am complaining." She said.

"I feel you, it would feel selfish if I kept this baby but it would also feel wrong .I'm not ready to have a baby, hell I'm still a baby." I told her.

"How did we get in such messes?" She asked me.

"I have no idea." I told her.

" You know I know you think you're alone in this but Puck he's a good guy , sure he may be an ass sometimes but he loves you and he'll support you no matter what happens." She told me.

"I'm just scared. If I keep the baby I'll mess up my own life but if I don't I might regret it." I said.

"Quinn , having a baby is a lot , hell taking care of a human being is a lot but I know you, you are the strongest person I have ever met. You're an amazon warrior , you have no fear. " She told me.

"Rachel , you're a lot stronger then you think too. You just got to believe in yourself. " I told her.

She looked at me and then the bell rang,

"I gotta go I'll see you in glee club. " She said.

"Okay." I said and she left.

(Glee Club )
Rachels pov :
I walked into glee club and sat down next to Quinn.

"Okay so Rachel has a song she would like to sing for this weeks lesson. So Rachel take it away." Mr.Shue said.

I got up and sat on the stool,

"I would like to dedicate this song to my friend , Quinn." I said smiling and started :
( Rachel )
(Gets up and takes Quinn to a stool )
Shaking your head like it's all wrong
Before you're here you're already gone
And even with the light all around you
You're all alone in the dark.
You're breaking your own heart
Taking it too far down the lonely road
You say you just want love
But when it's close enough you just let it go

The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.

(Quinn )
Too many tears, too many falls
It's easier here behind these walls
But you don't have to walk in the shadows
Life is so hard.

(Both)
You're breaking your own heart
Taking it too far down the lonely road
You say you just want love
But when it's close enough you just let it go
The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
(Rachel)
You're breaking your own heart.
It's not too late, I'm still right here.
If only you'd let go of your fears
You're breaking your own heart
Taking your own heart down the lonely road
(Both)
You say you just want love
But when it's close enough you just let it go
(Quinn)
The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
You're breaking your own heart

(End of song )
Everyone clapped and Quinn and I had tears and our eyes and we hugged eachother and then everyone else joined in.

(Later )
After glee club I was in the parking lot when I saw Finn. I walked up to him and he looked at me.

"Hey. " He said.

"Hey." I said.

"You did a really beautiful job today in glee." He told me.

"Thanks can I tell you something though?" I asked him.

"Sure." He said.

Quinns pov :
I was in the hall putting away my books when Puck walked up to me.

"Hey." He said.

"Hey." I said.

"Can I talk to you?" He asked me.

"Of course." I said.

Rachels pov :
"I know I haven't been the best girlfriend lately and I'm really , really sorry about that but I need you to know that you are the one thing I can't lose." I said.

Quinns pov :
"I know you think I'm an irresponsible, stupid, moron and all but ever since I saw the ultrasound of the baby I decided to straighten myself out."

Rachels pov :
"the truth is Finn , I love you with all my heart and losing you would be like losing myself , you are my light and even though I have cracks in my heart you are the thing that shines though."

Quinns pov :
"The thing is I love you Quinn and I love this baby and no matter what you decide to do I will stand by you one hundred and ten percent of the way." He told me.

Rachels pov :
"I can't live without you Finn , I need you, I want you, and I don't deserve you but I do whatever it takes to show you I love you. " I told him.

Quinns pov :

I looked at him shocked and then I leaned in and said ,

"Just hold me and never let go."

Rachels pov :
Finn lifted my face gentally and said ,

"I will always , always love you. " He told me and kissed me passionatley.