Dear I,
Well, this ought to be fun. I can't imagine you ever reading this, so I think I'll just spill it. Iloveyou. So much. Every single moment we've spent together is a moment I remember all the time. The teasing on the bus, the jokes, the innuedo, the water fights after school. All of it was something I liked and I hope that you did too, instead of finding it-and me- annoying.
We had an assignment in English during the first week of school. We had to describe our favorite memory. I wrote a couple down, thought about it, then realized that that one water fight we had was the best. I'm not here to describe it though, I'm here to tell you everything I didn't get to and leave nothing unsaid.
I miss you. I see couples walking down the hallways or the street and I think, if I had held on a little harder, longer, told you I loved you even, maybe then I wouldn't need wishful thinking. I'd already have my wish. You were the first boy I've ever loved, not just liked, and I doubt anyone else can truly measure up to you. Since I seem so burdensome to you, I'll try my best to forget. It's not easy though, letting go. I've started to like someone else yet I find myself comparing you two ALL THE TIME. I think, dude, seriously? His hair isn't the same, his eyes are different; in fact, I don't even see how I like him..
If you ever did read this, I'd die of embarrassment. Not just cuz I admitted I loved you, but because you'd think I was a lost and confused puppy, unsure of which master I was loyal to. I hate that feeling, the feeling that you think I'm stupid and pathetic. But it makes no sense; if I'm so stupid and pathetic, how come you never saw how much I loved you? It was very, very, painfully obvious according to most people, and I would've thought you'd have guessed.
Remember when you asked S.S(changed name) to the dance? And she said yes, then the second you were absent, she went after your best friend. Luckily, or unluckily (as you would've HATED him if he'd said yes), he said no and then she went back to you. Until yet another guy asked her. She ended up ditching you and going after him. Guess who had to patch you up? Oh that's right. Me. Excuse me if I sound slightly bitter, but I made you card, filled it with jokes, had everyone sign it and bought your three favorite types of candy. And tell me, what did I get in return? I got to go to the dance and watch you follow S.S everywhere like a frickin' lost puppy. I felt pathetic, falling for that stupid smile, actually believing that you had learned she was a complete and utter bitch. Yeah right. Love is blind though, so I forgive you. I know you couldn't have seen it, so it's fine. If you had any faults I definitely didn't notice or didn't care.
I still don't
I love you
I miss you
But I have to go.
xxMyLifeisAverageStillxx
OOH WAIT!!! PS: DID I MENTION S.S IS TRYING FOR E AGAIN?! Well, I should.. Cuz she is... Stupid slut... ANYWAYYYSSS (lol a true me-ish ending...)
Byee!!!
YOU ARE READING
30 Day Letter Challenge
Non-Fiction30 days. 30 letters. All to people who probably won't read them. But each one touches the heart of those who do.
