Chasing Elliot Grace

No. 4: A Talk With The Past

My small child's plate of chicken and rice arrived to the table along with Jenn and Andreas plates twice the size of mine. The three of us talk as I start to pick at my food after a few minutes. The girls soon start to take notice and send me a glance. "Elliot finish the plate." Jenn said in a demanding tone. I frown at her and Andrea as they now watch me. "I'm full, I can't eat anymore." Lies, I've learned to live with it though. "No you're not, now eat." Andrea said putting the fork back in my hand. I continue to frown at them as I take another bite but then rest my fork down again. "Girls really, I can't eat another bite. Please just let it go." I ask and they look at each other having what seemed to be a mental conversation. They turned back to me with squinted eyes. "Fine. But you miss, are going to eat more of it when we get back to the hotel later." I nod even though all three of us know that, that is not going to happen. If you haven't figured it out yet, a side effect of depression is not really eating. By not really I mean at all. That's what landed me in the hospital the first and only time. I passed out, Lauren found me, totally freaked and called an Ambulance, and later my mom. That what started me going to therapy, that any the now faded cuts now on my wrists. I'm okay now of course. The whole food thing is just still low for me, at least I'm trying. "So what's up with the whole Spencer thing?" Jenn asked after a few minutes of us sitting in an impatient silence. "She and the boys are here for their portion of the tour, they had their event today and tomorrow, so I need to get her to help me out a little with what I should do. I mean its not that I couldn't just ask you guys, its just that she was there when what happened did happen and I haven't really seen her since Christmas. Oh and if its okay I'm going to bring Tobias, Eva, and Blake back with me to see you guys." They smiled at the end of my speech and nodded. Through me, Blake, Tobias, and Eva have became friends with my roommates. Eva, is Tobias's girlfriend, I really don't know what happened between him and Emma, but I can tell he is mad for Eva and same with her. "Just drive carefully Gray." Jenn muttered. Oh did I not mention that? Yeah, Blake, Tobias, and I agreed that sense my cover would be easier to figure out if I went by Munro, so when Blake and I became friends we decided I would become Elliot Grace Gray. And its worked well, no one has figured it out yet. But Johnson is starting to scare me with his spying skills, plus he picks up on stuff. I began to grab my purse putting a ten dollar bill on the table. "Just use the rest for tip." I say as my two best friends hug me for what felt like the hundredth time in the past day. "Bye Elli!" They yelled as I walked out the door capturing the boys attention on purpose. I laugh at their goofiness as they send Johnson, who looked towards me with a determined face, sly grin. I walked to my beautiful galaxy Lamborghini that I had sent here in advance and began to back out of the Mexican restaurant turning back out onto the main street. I come to the first red light Starbucks in seeing distance. A few people on the side walk take a picture as I pass and I laugh. I don't think I'll ever get used to that. Pulling into the parking lot, I found a space open right next to my crazy sisters Tiffany Blue Jeep. I grab my purse again as I get out making sure to lock my baby. I love my car, probably more than I should, oh well. Entering I notice Spencer immediately, her newly blue and purple tips sticking out vibrantly. She is on the phone and let's out a small laugh as I walk towards her. Seeing me I realize she is on the phone with no doubt Nash, who seems to be flirting like a loser. I role my eyes at her letting out a small laugh. "What Ariel?" she acts, making it seem like she has to go. She motions for me to go along with it so I do. "Jacobs on a sugar high again! We need your help, he actually is scared of you, so you'll be able to get him to sit." I say remembering what she told me a few days ago about one of the boys Jacob. She sent me a thumbs up and mouthed thanks. "Crap, hey babe I got to go. Okay, I'll see you soon. Love you too. Bye." She said and ended the call then squeals jumping up from her seat, me as well, and hugging me. "Oh my gosh, I missed you so freaking much!" She said sitting down again. "Trust me, so did I. At least we can see each other more, now that we are on tour!" She nodded and I smiled. "Oh I already ordered for you and I have been ordered by Jenn to make sure you eat every last bite." I sigh, what a Jenn thing to do. "Shoot, she's fast." I sigh. "What did you order me?" I ask continuing, my stomach now churning at the thought of food. I'm fine with my frappichino but food to? They're trying to make me eat but I just do want to. "Your normal, Grande vanilla bean frappichino, milk based, and croissant, Jenn's orders." I groan at the thought of bread and Spencer looks at me with a sad expression. "We are just trying to do the best for you Grace, you know that right?" She asks the sad still lingering. "I know and I want to, its just hard." I say with a small smile. Our drinks and two croissants arrive then and I thank the girl for my drink. "Okay let's get down to business, you first. What's up?" She asks and my face hardens. "You forgot to mention that the boys would be on the tour." I say and she goes pale. "Oh my God! Gracie, I'm so sorry I didn't even think about it! I'm a terrible friend!" She says sadly. "Hey, its not your fault, but I do need your help." She looks up from her plate that is now empty and I take a bite of my croissant, even though I don't want to. "With what?" She asks. "Johnson. I think he's on to me and I can't let the others find out its me, I won't let it happen." I say and she looks at me shocked. "What do I need to do?" she asks eagerly. She understands me, even if she's now been with Nash for over a year. "Here's what I need you to do." I begin to explain the plan to her and she listens persistently, gulping down her drink as she goes. By the time I'm done, my plate is empty, by force of course, after Spencer hounding me about it. "I got it. Good plan, just make sure not to get caught." She says talking about step one of my plan. "I won't. Now what is my sisters, big announcement that I need to hear?" Her face falters a little and I grow concerned. "Spencer, is everything okay?" I ask. "Yes, I mean I hope so." She sighs putting her hand on her temple. I give her a minute to breath before she continued. "Look, your the only person I've told okay? I haven't even told Nash about this and it has to do with him. So you can't say anything till I tell him." I sit confused and tell her to go on. "I'm," She sighs, "I'm having a baby." I'm shocked to hear these words and she notices, starting to tear up. "Great, you hate me now. I knew this was a bad idea." She says getting up but I stop her grabbing her wrist. "No! No! I'm just shocked! That's amazing Spencer, I'm so happy for you!" I said as I put her back in her chair. "Really?" she asks with a smile. "Really. But you have to tell Nash, tonight. You can't keep this from him." Her face falters again. "That's the thing, I don't know how he will react. I'm terrified, Gracie." She says her head in her hands. "Hey, don't talk like that, it will be fine, and if not, Nash is not worth it okay?" She nods and I hug her. "Thanks Grace. I need to get going. I'll be at your hotel though, you want tailgate?" She asks and I shake my head. "I would but, I'm going to pick up Tobias, Eva, and Blake, remember?" I say and she nods. "Oh yeah! Well I'll see you soon. Love you bish." She said and I laugh. "I love you to betch. See ya." I say as we get in our separate vehicles. I turn on my car, letting my baby road to life. 5 seconds of summer roars to life as my Spotify playlist booms through the speakers.

I was already missing
Before the night I left
Just me and my shadow and all of my regrets
Who am I? Who am I?
When I don't know myself
Who am I? Who am I?
Invisible
I sung along with my radio as beautiful voices the angels that are Calum, Luke, Mikey, and Ash, sing. I soon am receiving a call from Jenn as I make my way through downtown. Catch Fire, another 5sos song is interrupted from the ringing. "Yes, Jennifer?" I ask in a sassy tone joking with her. "Elliot how many times do I need to tell you to stop calling me that? Anyways, where are you?" she asks with worry in her voice. "Jenn I'm perfectly fine, I just pulled up at Blake's  hotel, so I need to let you go, I'll be there soon. "Okay come to Nash's room when you get here, we are watching movies much to my displeasure, and waiting for Nash and Spencer to get back from the roof. She had something really important to tell him or something. So see you soon yeah?" I smile, good job Spencer. "Yeah I'll be there in thirty." I said happily and hung up. I got out of my car, hiding my purse under the seat and then get out almost skipping to the door of the Best Western. The door man opens the door and I thank him before checking the floor and room number Tobias text me earlier. Getting into the elevator by myself I press the button for the sixth floor and go on Twitter for a quick update.
ElliotGraceGray: I get to see my brother and best friends tonight! #fam
I post it as the elevator comes to halt and doors open. I'm greeted with two of the crazy boys that I've gotten to know. They don't notice me as they penny board through the hall. I speak up and scare them in the process. "You know Weston, you really do need to work on that turn,its pretty pathetic." Weston, yes the Weston that was on my dance team, also known as Weston Koury on Musical.ly as of now. Weston turns and runs to me and hugs me. "Graciebaby!" He says and I laugh at the nickname he's called me since forever. Let's get something straight really quick. Out of this group only four of them know my secret. Tobias, Blake, Weston, Simon, and Eva. Eva being the newest of people to know, I believe I can trust her. The other boy, Corbyn, hugged me as well and I shushed them both saying that Blake didn't know I was here yet so I wanted to surprise him and they nod. "Which room are they in?" I ask looking down the hall. "319, everyone else is in there too." I nodded and walk to that door, the boys in front of me as they knock to get back in. Tobias come to the door with a confused expression. "You guys know you have a key right?" the boys move away showing me and I hold a serious face. "I didn't though." I say and Tobias hugs me taking my feet off the ground. As I enter I hug all the boys as well as Eva and Ariel, except for Blake. "Where's Blake?" I ask noticing my "brother" is not with the group. "I'm right here, Ariel, I told you I was going to get changed. Everyone starts to laugh at Blake and stares blankly at everyone, me in the middle of the group where he can't see from my shortness. "Blakey I'm afraid I'm not Ariel." I say with a smile as I move through the two boys in front of me. Blake smiles and runs towards me the short distance, and I'm in the air again, this time spinning. "Sissy!" he yells making me laugh. After visiting for about 10 minutes I promise I'll come back tomorrow and hang out longer, and then we leave. Having rode in my car before, the boys were not surprised to be getting in. Eva however, was shocked and kept going on about how pretty it was. I told her thanks and we were off on our twenty minute ride to my hotel of the week. "So what did you do tonight?" Blake asked from beside me and I smiled, Tobias and Eva talking quietly in the back seat. "I guess you could say I had a talk with the past."
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-Taylor💋