Scars

So ugly...

"Why do they stare" I think in my mind I just stand there I wish I could disappear why am I so fucking ugly.
The lady's mouth is wide open when she looks at me I hate the way I look I wish I was pretty.
"WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF!" The lady yells at me looking at my bleeding wrists "because it's beautiful artwork..." I say quietly.
I must have passed out from loosing do much blood but all I know is I woke up in rehab again I was laying in a bed with blood being pumped into me and stitches on my wrists "fuck why can't I just die already!" I scream a nurse comes running in "oh you're awake it seems how are you feeling?" She says I listen to her voice carefully I look at her she has a light Irish accent her hair is a dull red it looks dyed her eyes are a dark brown like dark chocolate my stomach growls.
"Oh you must be hungry you're so skinny" she says handing me a tray of food, I pick up the knife
"Why do you do this to me" I say as tears fill up in my eyes soon rage overcomes me I stab the nurse in the arm she screams so I keep stabbing her as I cry and cry, I scream, the nurse now lays on the ground, dead, I look at myself in the mirror and my tears turn to laughter "I found a way to make me feel better" I drag the body of the nurse to the window I break the window and throw her out the window, her body makes a "SPLAT!" noise, it's pleasurable to see dead bodies I grab my phone I take that stupid GPS out of my phone and I turn off location, I run out of the building.
I get home I clean myself up,put on new clothes,I dye my hair black, I hated my original platinum hair, I put on makeup I looked like a completely different person they could never catch me, I grab my gun and some knives and leave with a few things I lock my door and put the key in a bush