Skies are turning into a lilac color
leaves from the tree springs brought wind around the sky
Watching the birds singing and dancing happily
sitting in the middle of trees that dancing in the wind
And feel the wind that hit my face
I know this day will come....
"Jamie, Darling is time..." my mother called me from the inside of the house, she's preparing things to put in the car.
Today Is the day of my surgery.
I have an unusual disease; lungs cancer that makes me fragile and have to stay in the house.
My lungs will be taken and replace.
I have this disease since I was a kid, I don't even remember when, but I knew I am different.
I never go to school, and I never had a real friend. I'm home schooling. Mom really takes care of me, but she also wants to see me having fun even though I can't do much.
My dad died when I was a kid, he got drunk and crashed into a big tree in the woods. My family rarely mentioned about him, either they are sad or scared.
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I'm waited until this day come, the surgery day.
I'm wearing a blue pale sweater with a jean and my white adidas shoes.
My house were way up in the mountain so it took about two hour to get to the hospital. When my mother drove the car, my heart beating so fast and my sweat start streaming down as we get closer and closer to the hospital. You know this feeling in your stomach full of idk, not butterfly of course. But makes me feels hurt.
I never got scared or feeling uneasy going to hospital, because I've been in and out multiple time. But now there is 40% chances that this transplantation might be fail, either my lungs been really bad or the new lungs doesn't match with my body. So, I'm so afraid for this one.
Someone donate his lungs for me but My mother never tells me who it is.
We walked into the hospital, I have to do some checkup to see my conditions.
I changed to surgery clothes, it does not feel comfortable. You didn't wear any underwear under this green dress, and I feel kind of disgust.
My mom waited outside the room, while I pulled with a wheelchair to the surgery room. I was so nervous, goosebumps coming up.
I then lay down to the bed, and facing bright lights so bright that even can hurt my eyes. The doctor and nurse prepare things around me, then one of them put a mask on me to put me down "try to breathe normally and count to ten". Just as I count to three, my eyes feels so heavy and heavier, and suddenly everything was blur, then come the darkness.
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When I woke up, I looked at my mom sleep in the couch. I saw my hand, there is a needle stuck in it, it's connected with a bag that containing a clear liquid. I saw again to my chest, there's a couple of stitches. I hiss a little, feeling a pain in my chest.
"You're awake honey" I saw a bright smile come out from my mom face.
"You have to stay at the hospital for another three days, so the doctor can monitor your condition with this new lung" she continued "okay, it's just 72 hours left" I replied.
"what's the doctor says mom? " I asked since I don't know my condition is. "The doctor says your condition is stable, and your lungs works properly" she said and rub my head. "Thank god" I relief. "ohh and mom who is exactly the donor of my lungs? " I asked still curious about my lifesaver.
"I-i can't really tell you, they put it anonymously but I'm sure they are a really good person" said my mom.
"... I really want to say thank you and give something for them"
"I know honey, I'll (sigh) try to ask the hospital again" she said.
Day by day happen so quickly, some of my cousin and aunt had already pay me a visit and left a few bouquets with food.
I've been hospitalized so many times before, so I actually being used to it. Hospital is like my second home, the nurses pretty much know me and I basically know all the doctors.
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"This is it, finally you are getting out from that hospital and feeling brand new!" said my mom happily "yeah, finally" I said almost whispering and gave my weak smile.
My mom promised to me that she will bring me to the pet shop as a reward. I'm not much of a talker, so my mom decided to get me a pet. And for a long time, I also want to have a pet to be my friend. I know it's not recommended to go to the pet shop when you just out from a hospital, but I just want to feel like a new person this time. You know with me having a 'new lung'... and because we were in the town it's best to stop by anyway.
When we arrived at the local shelter I saw so many different animals, my mom tells me to choose whatever I want as long as I'm considering my situation and allergies and bla..bla..bla... Despite from all things, this actually makes me excited for the first time in a while.
1. I saw a bunny, but it's too small and can't hug it.
2. Then a parrot, it was sweet, but I have allergic to a certain bird.
3. The next one I saw a white fluffy cat; it was really cute but too calm and my mom is not a fan of a cat. Also with my disease, cat fur is one of the things that I should beware of.
None of the animal in This place that fit for me and perfect to be my friend. Until I heard a bark from the next hall. It's a dog, an Australian Shepherd. It instantly circles around me and licking my hand. It turns out to be a male dog around 6 months old, he was given up by his previous owner because they already have so many dogs in the house and can't take care for all. I finally decided to take him; and my mom basically will do anything to makes me happy. I then bought him a neckless and some needs for him.
In the way home, he can't stop looking from the window while put his tongue out. I took a few pictures with him, you know as sick boy I still like to take picture even though my face looks pale.
We arrived at my house. As I opened my car door, he immediately got out and ran into the house, I wondered a while what to call him and decided to call buddy since this is my new buddy, you know what I mean?
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Hi guys this is my first ever story, I'm sorry if it's too boring but I promise at the next chapter there will be something, Jamie will find his first love and some adventure because of his dog, Max. If you guys like it, please gave me a vote, and if you guys have an idea to put in this story kindly leave a comment, thank you :*
P.s. I'm not that good with grammar, so....
