I had gone insane… There’s nothing I could do now, there’s no way back, I am all alone in this place. There’s nothing I could survive, I might die, in a month or two, in this sad abandoned place earth. I had gone through a portal, where nothing could get, out of it even if that thing was faster than the speed of light or sound. The portal was a color I never seen, and I can’t explain because it wasn’t real color. Also because since we are so limited in our imagination, there is no way for anyone to picture it but me, for I have seen the portal. I swear I had gone crazy when I saw it, I swear I could have seen something move in the portal like an eye, were the retina was a rainbow of dark colors and were the pupil of the eye looked like a toad’s and a cat’s pupil put together so that it looks like a round cross.
The portal was sure to bring me insane, by just the color of it, but I noticed that through the portal it wasn’t anything I could imagine, but only to remember the thought of IT. I could not imagine what that thing could do it was unrealistic, the movement of IT was unreal and IT would always take different shapes and forms. Even those deep dark evil eyes would have change from dark to light. Then from the portal I heard the monster speak, or giggle because it sounded in between. But yet I understood it, in my mind but just not what I heard, IT sounded like if it spoke a universal language, no matter what IT said I understood in the mind but not what I heard. IT was unreal, I was in total shock I couldn’t move, I couldn’t speak, blink, stare, my eye’s couldn’t stay in focus, I was breath-les my body just had a temporal stop, it wouldn’t react to anything, not even the inside seem to work. I was scared but yet I felt that, since I seen it I was able to understand more about the world and universe, like if my brain had just opened and it was in one-hundred percent comprehension, but I felt I could open it more.
For a brief moment of my life I felt as if I had all the power in the world and half of the universe, but it wasn’t power it was more of a opening for me to know how equilibrium works and how the world works in that same manner. How matter can be moved around and be assorted the way I wanted it to be, like how to change coal into gold, but it was more to that it was spiraling insane. But I couldn’t do any of the things I wanted to do, unless if I change the world it’s self or wait in time, till the world was advanced enough in technology and science. But it would take too much time… which I didn’t have I knew the only way to do the things I wanted I had to talk to that monster in the portal, to bring me to a better place in which I could show my ideas and won’t be hidden from the world.
I can’t take it; life is so cruel, for me to talk to a beast I had no comprehension about, even if my mind was opened to its maximum. I wouldn’t be able to take it, IT was on another level, then humans for we live in the third dimension, and I can tell IT was on a much higher dimension then we humans. Compared to that thing, or shall I call IT “god”, for it had all the power in this dimension and I bet the next, but I knew that there must be at lease something stronger than that, cause it was in a endless cycle. It gave me comprehension and understanding of the universe which I knew it, “god”, knew what was going on and what I wanted, but not what was going to happen. Because IT even knew that time was something that, no one or anything can control but it knew how to manipulate time it’s self.
That’s why it never seemed to leave IT’s little aura of energy, for it looked like the flow of water but the texture that it looked like was color. I felt as if I touched IT; IT would feel like a color not like a physical thing. While I tried to understand more the more that thing giggled, I knew it was a giggle because in my mind I heard a little faint laughing, which sounded hollow and cold. As if IT understood everything I was thinking and what found out about IT, and it seemed very amused by the thought of me going insane. I found the same kind of twisted humor IT felt. The thought of seeing someone go insane seemed very amusing because when someone truly loses their mind, their mind is easy to manipulate and twist, so that it would work in your favor. To make someone do you’re bidding and to see them go over the edge as if life was just one big test that was impossible to pass, losing your humanity didn’t sound bad at all… it seems very entertaining.
