Of Love and Loss~My Dragon

The dragon

I didn't want this, I didn't want to do any of this. But I had to I couldn't let him down! And when I'm done I'll find him and show him that I am the best, I'll find him! I'll find Igneel.
~FLASHBACK~
"Igneel Igneel look look!"
" what is it natsu what's got you so excited" Igneel said.
" look look my wings came out a whole year early!" I said waving the bright red wings around behind me.
" I see they are a magnificent pair of wings"
" ya and look they're bright red just like yours.. Igneel I'm gonna be just like you!" I said in a bright smiling face. "Yes yes I'm sure you will your gonna be a great dragon natsu it'll just take some time and your gonna have to harden your heart to the pain to come" Igneel said. " huh whatcha mean Igneel?"
" oh nothing nothing just talking to myself, come now natsu it's time for your hunting training". " alright!" I yelled.
~BREAK IN FLASHBACK~
I didn't think I um I thought it was going to last he was my dad why wouldn't it last?
~BACK TO FLASHBACK~
"hey Igneel what's for breakfast? I'm so hungry I could eat a whole sheep myself!! .... (Silence).. Igneel.. Igneel where are you! IGNEEL!" I screamed Starting to sound desperate my mind was racing where could he Have gone was he hunting? I didn't know but Ive never woken up completely alone before and it scared me!
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It's been three days.. Igneels.... Not coming back is he? No he's not I need to get up and eat something before I starve to death. But I've never cooked before! I don't know what to do anymore!
SQUEEEEEEE
"huh that's igneels messenger hawk! Is he coming back after all?" (The birds enchanted so it can talk *^*) I bear a message for natsu dragneel. "Natsu I'm sorry I left without a warning or a Word but it was going to happen sooner or later so when your wings sprouted I felt the need to leave so I did there's nothing to it its my business so move on with your life maybe just maybe you can actually be a good dragon but I doubt it your too kind hearted. I can't stand to see a dragon be as kind and innocent as you! So I left." Sqwea " message end" the bird squawked as it flew way.
"Wha what.. He thought I was bad for being kind?" I cried the sobs beginning to shake my fragile little body. "F-fi FINE I WILL NOT BE KIND ANYMORE I'LL BE THE BEST DAMN DRAGON THERES EVER BEEN! " I screamed through my tears of sadness and rage.
~FLASHBACK END~
"Haa (sigh) well I guess I should go back I'm tired and bored of murdering and tormenting this town. Some rest then I'll hit the next town over, are you happy Igneel I am the cruelest dragon out there so I'm coming for you" I say as I drop the head in my hands to the ground *shplack* as it rolled away. As I walked away I shook my hands to get the excess blood off then wiping my hands on my pants, careful not to get it on my muffler. The smell of all the blood was starting to mess with my smell so I quickly spread my enormous red wings which were folded down on my back. Springing into the air I soared east back to my cave.
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*click click clak* I open up my eyes to see some mice scurry around the cave nothin new though I rarely have people here. The only people I ever actually have in here are people I kidnap or THEM. Ugh them, just thinking about them makes me shudder. Whenever they're here something always seems to go wrong but hey they're family. I swear to all the gods in creation or destruction whoever the hell you believe in you have not seen hell until you have seen my family reunion and friend gatherings however few they are. I have learned one thing over the years of having met these people, and that's no matter how strong you think you are if they're gathering don't make a fuss and don't run.
The little bit of family I have left that I know of is my cousins Gajeel who is the same age as me and Wendy who is like a younger sister. Of course their elements are different cause their parents are different. Gajeel is a iron dragon, which makes him a even bigger idiot. His dad metallicana who was just as bad as my dad and also abandoned him but for different reasons, personally I think it cause gajeels just too stupidly stubborn. Wendy however is wind Dragon and her mom grandine didn't leave her she died, so she's been living with Gajeel. I'd let her stay with me but I'm a bad influence on her, they say I'm to overly cruel when I'm hunting and that I shouldn't hunt humans in the first place. But hey can't help it I trained myself to be cruel and not to openly show love and kindness. When kindness only ever got me hardships. When I'm hunting the second I see blood trained emotions and actions kick in and I lunge in full speed.
And when I say friends I really only mean like two Gray, Jellal and Gajeel but he's family so doesn't really count for the friend category. Gray however much of a duchebag he is is still somehow a friend. Grays the one who really gets into fights with me over the simplest stupidest things. Jellal however is the exact opposite he's all uptight, but he's one of the strongest I've ever met. Grays an ice dragon and jellals a meteor dragon so he has purple wings.
"Ugh why is it such a pain to deal with them,....I should go hunting but that takes effort right now I just wanna sleep for eternity.. SHIT are they coming over today... Oh wait that's tomorrow....and why the hell am I talking to myself I must be going insane finally.. Whatever I'm going back to sleep." I said to myself as I sat in thought for a while before actually drifting off into a deep sleep.
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Hi guys this is of dawn and night and this is my first story so I hope you like it and message me! Kk thanks Ceya love you bye!😘