TOXIC LOVE

JUST SOME WE TIME...

             It was six at the evening.
     
             Nandini Murthy was standing on the pavement just in front of the office waiting for a cab. Suddenly it started raining heavily and she was more than drenched. She wrapped her arms around herself and  started walking down the street.

             
               Shit, why did it have to start raining now, just to make this day a bit more difficult for me right. I just want to collapse on my bed now I can't hold myself up anymore. I have had enough today.

              A black Audi came and halted in front of me obstructing my way.

             YES IT WAS HIM .
              He put his head out of the window and uttered " excuse me come in I'll drop"

                Like seriously ??? EXCUSE MEEEE !!!! How can a man be so irritating, is it that he doesn't know how disgusted his presence makes me feel or is his moto is to disgust me.

                 Why is he bringing back those days when he always used ro drop me home. No no I have moved on ..... yeah like I AM MOVING ON, but sometimes more than the person u miss the memories with them. I hate u Manik Malhotra but I am afraid I still love those moments we spent together. I remember how u used to drop me home and never bid me goodbye without a peck on my lips.

                "Ya so come in" his heavy voice brought me back to TODAY. Oh yes, stupid me, TODAY is so different.

             I don't know why but I got in.

             There was an awkward silence and I very well knew this will remain till my apartment comes.

               I put my hands outside the window to feel the rain. I closed my eyes and tried to feel it with all my heart, but as soon as I shut my eyes all OUR moments in rain unfolded - how he used to cuddle with me in the rain and that wild kiss that we had under the rain on my birthday. I could feel a smile on my lips. Why Nandini why are u still not over all that. Those were over long back. Are u serious ??? His thoughts still make u smile ... I actually feel ashamed of myself.

             "U are still so much fond of rain and u still do that" he said with a smirk looking at me and the road alternatively.

                 He remembers ANYTHING OF ME ????I mean he remembers how I used to enjoy the rains so does he also remember how WE used to cuddle in the rains ??? I looked at him with awe .

             "Yeah people change but some things in life remain the same....a very few things" I said as tears blotted up my eyes and I looked away.

             He did not reply but I could feel his eyes on me.

              I looked at the place of music system just to find it blank. Well yeah I was shocked. Manik Malhotra doesn't listen to music.

              I was staring at it for a long time and he noticed that.

              "You said some things in life never change but sometimes some things in life change everything" he said in a completely different tone, but I know this tone. This is how my  Manik used to speak with me.

            He applied the brake. Yeah we have reached my apartment.

              Honestly I did not want to go. I have so much to say and much more to hear. I don't know why did his eyes say that even he needs me, even he wants me to be here with him. Why did I feel even he did not want to let me go.....

              "Can we have a cup of coffee together" I asked him hesitantly placing my hands on his.

                   I could see a sudden glow in his eyes. Is it real or am I assuming too much. He literaly jumped off the car and said "yeah sure, lets just go".

                He was walking before me until we reached the door when I had to over take him to open the door.

                  I brought two cups of coffee and kept it on the glass table in front of us.

               "Manik, how do u play guitar without being connected to music ??" I asked curiously.

               He looked at me . "I don't"  he said with a smirk "since more than a year now" he completed.

                What ??? He doesn't play guitar anymore?? I felt a sudden ache in my heart. Why did he take away every thing from me ??? I mean I fell in love with his music before I fell for  him and he says even that music doesn't exist now.

              I don't know how and why I drifted towards him.

               "Manik were we never meant to be" I whispered.

               He gazed at me. His glares actually made me shiver. He eyes were firsr fixed on my eyes.

              I cupped his face and whispered into his ears "Manik, did u never love me ?"

              I could feel his hot breath on my face.

              Before I could say anything further he slammed his lips onto mine.

              I didn't know how to react but I couldn't think so much.

              I just sat there. Somewhere my heart longed for this. I thought I got back  our moments.

               I slowly opened my mouth to allow his tongue to enter.

                  I could feel his hands on my waist. He broke the kiss and now I could feel on my neck. He made me lay back on the sofa and he was over me. I could feel his breath all over my body.

             Now his lips were just an inch away from me and they were nearing mine.

              I opened my eyes and gained back my conscience.

            "But Alya" I spoke out.

             He opened his eyes eyes and sat up at once. He sprang and stood up. I sat up too staring at him. He wasn't even looking at me for once.

               I separated my lips to say something but his words did not let me complete.

               "Shit! Alya! I was supposed to be there by seven its already half past seven now" he spoke to himself.

                I could feel tears in my eyes.

               He took out his phone to check something.

               "Freak!! six missed calls, I hope she is alright" he murmured to himself and rushed out of the apartment.

                  I was stoned. I didn't know how to react.

               Am I just this to him, just someone whom he can pounce on whenever he wants and then just rush away.

               How did I allow  him to do this with me. I hate myself for me. Tear rolled down my cheeks and unfortunately I couldn't stop them.

                This night is yet another worst night of my life.

Phewwww I tried to give a longer update this time. I need feedbacks and enough votes, only then I will be updating the next part. Please understand its my first attempt to write a ff so I need your votes n feedbacks more than I want them.

Bye for now. Take care.