Suicide

:Chapter One: ( First note )

5.00 am
Monday 15 June 2013
Beep beep beep
As I turn around to  turn off  my alarm clock all I hear is my step father  John  screaming my name. " Jasmine get down here now before I drag you down by your head " . Yes father said Jasmine. After school  I want to you clean the whole house and do the whole yard if not your not going to eat for the rest of the week do you understand  me .? Said dad.
But..... no buts Jasmine . It's a yes or a no question.  Yes sir . Said Jas.   Now piss off to your room and get ready for school . Mhm yes dad... oh and Jasmine your mother will be coming back from the hospital with ur baby sisters.
So I want you to help out with her. 

6.00 am

Rebecca ( mum ) honey I'm home . Hi mum said the 4 children and I . Hey Jake , the oldest at 18. Jordan at 16, and kaya and Tara at 15 . Have you been good to John. ? Yes mother they all said at the same time .
Okay then . Wheres Jasmine ..?
She a at..
Don't worry about her any why.
Kk said Jake

7.00am
Jasmine is walking to school and all she could hear is students picking in her while they drove passed on the bus." Jasmine is poooooooooooooooor".
She can't even afford the bus fear.  Said Jason .

8:24am
Jasmine walks into the school doers with her head down and walk quickly past her crush Nathan. Nathan was a nice and cute boy but never Spoke  to Jasmine . As she went to her locker to gather her books ready for economics , a group of girls came up and started calling her names that wasn't nice at all. But they didn't care . One girl named Abigail  punch her in the guts and face then laugh at her . The rest of the group went to class.

Jasmine was starting to cry because of the pain going throughout the body but no one gave a dam about her.  Not even the teachers .

12.00pm lunch

Lunch time ..
Jasmine is eating kfc for lunch because she felt Like it. As every single student walk pass her they called her " Fat whore slut.  All she did was ignore them with every child could do . When she went to the bathrooms she started  to cry and decided to go home .

2:00pm

She walks In with red eyes and still crying quietly so her mum and John wouldn't knew that she was upset . She quickly walk into her room and got undress into her normal  blacks clothing .
Knock knock
Jazzy.??
Its mum can I enter .??
Sure .
What's up why you crying .
Said mum .
Mum why did you have to date John.  He hates me so do you . I get pick on at school.  I meant to clean up the whole  house or I won't eat for the rest if the week . John said that mum . Even you said I was a mistake  . Do you even love me .?

Jasmine . Said mum .
Your a beautiful child and I love you but yes your where a mistake but I couldn't help it could I . I had you and that ain't my fault  is it . .??

Then who fault is it .?

Yours ..

How is it my fault when you had sex  with dad without a condom.
Aye .???

Jasmine .

No  just go please go and leave me be I ain't listing anymore to your lies . 😔  you should of abrasion me when you had the change. 
Said Jasmine .

Her mother leaves slow and quite.

Err man I fucken hate my life ........ paper ..
Note one

You may be crying or not
You may not care or you might.
But in my case you might not give  Dam .
You could be reading this or not.
But for honesty you could be happy. In front of you or near you is  my dead body laying in peace. I could be in hell  or heaven but at last I'm in peace.. Everyday  you step add treats me like a slave when I'm clearly an human  bean.?  But your words hurt more than stick and stones .
I cry about school and you and mum never ask what's up or are you okay . But instead you hesitate to call me fat.  You never help me in school nor home you just expect for me to do it alone.
You and mum always ask Me why are you fat or why are you quite, piss  off to your room before I give you a hiding.  You never ask how I'm felling nor help me when I'm down. I feel stupid  and tried every day but you don't see it because you don't ask . I wish I was a better child you  no.  I wish I was love  more. when dad  was alive he loved me more than anything . But instead he 6 ft underneath. I wish I was treated and trusted  like the others but nope I'm just , a stupid  little child and needs to die . When I'm gone you wont need to worry about buying me food nor clothing because I won't be here to bother yah again.  Mum it ain't my fault  you had me . It yours . It ain't my fault I'm in this way it's yours.. 
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.. you may be happy that I'm gone nor sad . You may be sad . But knowing you, you won't give a dam because you never cared about this unless child.. do you know what it feels like being called a whore  fat  stupid. No became you  never been called it by your  family. I ain't ganna  say I love  you because you  never  mean it. Goodbye and enjoy your life don't bother visiting my grave .

Jasmine ..
..  10.pm
Knock knock . It's mum can I come in. 

Jasmine quickly hid the  note.
Sure whatever.

What do you want . Unlike you I got to sleep and wait to get an Hiding  from John. 

I'm here to tell you that your father is alive.

Puff prove it .??
Hun come in. 

John came in .
What that ain't my real father . He never going to be dad,  never he doesn't have my DNA.
Said Jasmine. .

Jasmine cut your fucken shit out.
Before you get a hiding . Be nice to your mother.  Or leave and don't come back. Said John.

Fine leave let Me grab my things and I go so I won't be here said Jasmine. . Jasmine your not going anywhere who going to look after the baby's .?? Your mun got work and I do to .  Said John.
To bad .I'm leaving oh and it your children not mine to look after . I be back later to Pico up my things if not I call the police . I'm getting sick and tri........ to be continued