Heaven Gains My Little Angels

People keep saying to me when someone dies heaven will gain another angel. But what about me? Angels are meant to be perfect and i'm the opposite. I'm fat, single, i have a baby growing inside me, i self harm, i get bullied, I'm ugly as hell and have no family left!  To get enough money to feed and cloth myself and the others. i lied about having no family i acctually have a little brother and 3 little sisters to look after from mum dying in birth with the twins and dad commiting suiside from loosing her. we never told a soul just kept it secret from the world. i live in a flat on my own to look after my 4 little siblings and the child growning inside me. I have a job but its hard to make money at 19. 

My life consists of getting up at 5:30am and heating water up over a stove as we have no hot water and washing my siblings with help from James (my oldest sibling aged 12). all of us have to do jobs for people to pay for the flat and food and my clothes as the others get hand-me-downs and whats left from the old clothes from the box that we didnt sell for the money. at 6:00am i dress them and James helps get Hope ready for school and i get Faith and Peace ready for our neighbor to look after them. At 7:00am i wash and change into my school clothes. then we set of to school and drop the twins off at Sarahs place. and i carry Hope to school and walk with James and drop them off before walking for 10minutes to my school. 

I brase myself before walking round the corner to meet the school bullies and get pumuled before even reaching my first lesson. i have to protect my stomach incase my baby dies or gets hurt so only my legs and arms get bruessed. i walked into lesson - late (as always) and sit at the back. The teachers dont care if im late as they think my parents are ill so i look ofter them but they dont know about my sisters only James.

Oh how rude i havent introjuced myself yet, Im Nina - Nina Slade. class joke and most bullied person alive with a life that hell was based from.