Wanna kill yourself. Imagine this; you come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding that letter against your chest, closing your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks I your door to tell you dinner is done. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying in your bed so he thinks your asleep. He tells mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screams your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, laying next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there's a announcement. The principal tells everyone about you suicide. It takes a few seconds to soak in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were to hard on you. The mean popular girls, they think of all the things they said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really were. Your ex boyfriend, the one you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks down and starts crying; he runs out of school. Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing that could have helped you before wit was to late. And your BestFriend? She's in shock. She can't believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad.. Bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up, walks our of the classroom, and sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but not tears coming out. It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you as the girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one who was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories thy had wit you, there was a lot. Everyone is crying, you little brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he's to young. Your parents said you just died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were always supposed to be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the whole service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries, and doesn't stop for days. It's two years later. The whole school talks to a councilor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their jobs. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and he just sleeps around with girls. Your fiends all go into depression. Your BestFriend, she tried to kill herself. She didn't succeed like you did, she tried though...your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries every night, he does what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom was diagnosed wit depression and lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they so. Your choices don't effect just you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone who needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before I'm here for you.
