So today was a lot better than yesterday. I mean I wasn't in the funk I was in. Half the school was gone because of trips and I was alone sitting at my stand because my stand Lerner was away on one of them. I don't care though she is having fun and I'm happy. So I was practicing and I look up from my stand and I see no one other than the boy staring my way, I still don't know if he looks at me or someone behind me. I have been trying to at least say hello to him all week and I am miserably failing. But tomorrow we leave at the same time so maybe I'll catch him after school. I have been trying to talk to him before lunch as we both sit in the classroom before we head down but I just can't muck up the courage to. I mean come on he is playing his guitar and I don't want to interrupt and all but even when he is just setting his stuff down and none of his friends are there I still can't. UGHH. But I WILL tomorrow even if my friend is there or not if my face turns red it turns red. If I choke or stutter then I do so but at least I will say something to him in person before the break. I will be a little upset with myself if I don't. But only I can control if I do or not.
