Hello. My name is not important. My name is the least of things to be known in life because I do not seek fame. I'm going to be real. I will write in a correct format, but I won't try to be professional. I have no clue why you opened my book, but you did, so I promise not to waste your time. Everything you read in this small chapter that will be this whole book is going to be truth, no lie. I am going to be real, as I said, and I will not lie or do anything that seems like I just want attention. The only thing I want to do is open your eyes, reader.
For years I've wanted to be happy with the heart of another, I am only sixteen. Only sixteen, and whether you think a sixteen year old can fall in love or not how about you just read this with an open mind, eh? People of this freaking generation do not know a thing about others. They don't know how to respect and love and truly care for one another and I can tell you now that you may as well be one of them! I have tried to love everyone I meet and I have fallen in love multiple times but I can't seem to get it right!
Love can corrupt the mind, the heart, the body! You can give yourself away to love but still not know it! Love has to be two sided else it will never work, else you will crash and burn because that other person on the other side decided you're not worth their breath, you're not worth their lifespan, you simply aren't good enough! You are...okay? You are worth it. The unloved have more reason to be loved than the chased. Never forget that...you're worth it.
"And these three remain: Faith, Hope, and Love. The greatest of these is Love." 1 Corinthians 13:13.
It's true. Love is the center of all things good and evil. Whether it be love for lust or love for gold or love for another human being, you will do anything for the person you love most. Love is powerful and it is what created us. God so loved the world he gave his only son. God so loved the world he made it. Believe what you want, okay? I won't pressure you to believe, never.
I am hurt. Heartbroken, and torn; I'm so torn that I'm angry. I fell to my knees in prayer and that is the only reason I have any courage right now. God has provided not simple healing, but the strength to withstand the pain of her. The girl I loved more than myself left me without a word, just like the girl before her. She abandoned me to the world and to my own devices and my devices burn my heart with everything I am. Hellfire is truly real because I can feel it burning my soul as I type and as she finally messages me because she "didn't think of using Wattpad to message me" for a whole month after she "loved" me.
That is just the most stupid excuse I've ever heard, but it doesn't mean I don't believe it. But here's the thing- I did love her. I'm only here...because I still do. Doesn't hurt any less though. If anything it hurts more. She abandoned me in my time of need and the only thing she can say is that she's sad, completely discarding how I must feel. That's not true love, though. I thought of everything to talk to her again, and she obviously didn't. But when I knew she left...I knew to move on. I tried to, but I couldn't. It hurt too much to say goodbye to everything amazing she was in my life, I still have the last note she ever wrote me in my Bible in 1 Corinthians 13! I never let go no matter how much I tried.
Christians, or Christianos, means "little Christs", imitators of Christ. It's what the Romans called those who followed Christ as an insult, and like some of the Jews in the Holocaust, they wore their "brand" with pride. Thus creating Christians. Christ, no matter what, waited and loved all those who stood against him. Even on his cross he begged the forgiveness of his murderers to the Father. And as a 'Little Christ', why should I not forgive? Why should we not? The two greatest commandments are to Love the Lord God with all of our hearts and Love our neighbors as ourselves. I still love her...but do I let go? I will never abandon her, that would make me, if anything, worse than her. But do I drop every feeling and back out? These are the things to consider when somebody breaks your heart, and never forget it.
So here we are. The very first day of the rest of our lives. Will we love or hate? Abandon or keep? Forgive or forget? Believe or deny? Christ gave me my second chance. Christianos.
