Lie To Me and Tell Me You Love Me [Shizaya] (OneShot)

Lie To Me and Tell Me You Love Me

IZAYA ORIHARA

I lay here in the hospital bed for the past three months ever since I found out I have cancer. But, I won't be laying here any longer.. Today is my last day here. Here in the hospital, and here in this world.

I smile sadly as I stare out of the window here in my hospital room. I know that I have hurt a lot of people, I know I'm just a sick bastard, I know that people don't care about me.. But, I can't help it to feel sad that I am going to die today, and that this will be the last time I will able to see this world.

I bit my bottom lip to stop the tears from falling down. It just hurts to know that after this day..

I won't be able to see him anymore..

Just when I was about to breakdown, the doctor came in and smile sadly at me. "Today is the day, hmm, Izaya?"

I let out a weak chuckle and gave a slight nod. "Yeah.. I can't believe it that I'm going to die today.."

The doctor just kept silent for a few minutes then said, "Your sisters and your friends are here, by the way. I will give you guys some time." After that, I sat up as he walk out of the room, and it was the twins' turn to enter.

They both burst into the door and tackle me in a hug. My eyes widen when I feel my hospital gown start to get wet. Are they.. crying?

"Nii-san! P-Please don't leave us! W-We need you with us, nii-san! You're our o-only family!" I hear Mairu sob. I just smile painfully as I play with the twins' hair.

"N-Nii-san.. don't leave.. p-please..." Kururi said weakly as I feel her body shake.

I let out a weak laugh and said, "Shh... Don't cry.. You guys don't need me anymore... I already finished my job as your brother.. Even though I know that I am just a useless, and worthless brother.."

They just keep on crying. Soon, I feel my tears start to fall down my cheeks. If only.. if only I could just turn back time and change all of this.. then maybe.. just maybe...

Maybe I can be a different and a better person..

I hear the door open and I look at the person who just enter. It was my friends. They are all crying as well.

I just let a fake smile grace my features and told them, "I'm sorry..."

I bow my head down and let my hair cover my tears.

"I-I'm sorry for all what I have done in the past... I-I'm s-sorry for being such a t-terrible person.. I'm so sorry.." I cry as I hug the twins tightly.

"We are sorry too, Izaya.." Dota-chin said.

"We are sorry for not always being there with you when you needed us the most, Izaya.. we are really sorry.." Namie said quietly.

I look at my friends once more. Everyone is here except..

"Where is Shinra?" I ask. And as if on a cue, Shinra walk in and smile sadly at me.

"I just wanted to bring someone here and let you guys talk.. So, we might as well leave." Shinra said and looked at the others and walk out of the room with the others following him, as well as the twins.

Now, I am alone in the room once more. After a few seconds, I hear the door open.

I turn to face that person. My eyes widen in surprise when I saw him, staring at me.

I swallow a lump at my throat and stutter, "S-Shizu.. chan?"

He just stare at me blankly then grab a nearby chair and sit, still not breaking his gaze away from me.

"W-Why are you here?"

He frown a bit and said, "What else? I'm just here to tell you goodbye, as Shinra said so."

I bit my bottom lip lightly and bow my head down so he will not see my eyes that are starting to water.

I grip on the sheets tightly as I feel my heart clench. Of course.. what do you expect, Izaya? That he will just come here with his own free will? I'm such a idiot.

I lay back down on the hospital bed and stare out of the window once more.

"Hey, Shizu-chan.. do you know..." I swallow a lump at my throat and continue, "..I'm hurting right now..."

He just keep quiet, so I keep on talking.

"Not physical.. but emotional and mental pain.. You know what Shizu-chan..? I am always making this wish of mine these past three months.."

I put on a fake smile as I let my tears fall down. "I always wish.. that just once.. just once... I will hear the person I love.. say those three words.. even if.. it is just a lie... But.. I am hoping to much.. ne?" I let out a broken laugh as more tears pour down from my eyes.

"It hurts.. it hurts to know.. that the person I love... just see me nothing but a burden to the world.. it hurts to know.. that he mean every word he say to me... It hurts.. Shizu-chan... It hurts to know.. that he hate me so much that he want to kill me... It hurts to know that.. I am just lying to myself that.. even just for once... he will look at me without those hate in his eyes... even just for once... he will give me that smile that he gives to everyone he care about... even just for once... I always hope that.. even just for once... just once.."

I turn my head to face him. But when I did that, I feel my eyes get heavy. Like I want to go to sleep..

"...even just for once.. he will tell me.. he don't hate me.."

My vision becomes blury and dark.. I don't know if it is because of my crying.. or I am just sleepy.

I feel something grab my hand, and I struggle to keep my eyes open.

"..ne.. Shizu-chan... will you.. please.. tell me.. those three words... even if.. it is just.. a.. lie...?" I said quietly.

I feel the grip on my hand tighten as I feel something wet drop at the back of my hand. Is it raining inside the room?

"...ne.. Shizu-chan... I feel sleepy.." I whisper, and I hear him say, "Just close you eyes.. Izaya... just.. sleep..."

"Promise.. me... one thing... then..."

"What is it?"

I took in a deep breath and said in a quiet voice, "Never... leave my side.. until.. I wake up.. please..."

I think I saw him smile at me as he answer, "I promise. Now.. close your eyes and sleep.."

I nod slightly and close my eyes completely as I feel myself fall into a deep sleep but, before I throughly fall asleep, I hear a voice say...

"I love you, Izaya..."

I smile sadly. This is all a dream.. It couldn't be Shizu-chan, right? Right.. He would never say those words.. This is all a dream..

What a painful.. yet a beautiful dream..