"She's so beautiful."
"I just cant stop thinking about her."
"It actually hurts."
"She's the first."
"I think I dreamed her up."
heard a lot of that. boys ranting about girls they've met and fell in "love" with.
they say
"love at first sight does exist, man. i saw her and the stars exploded in my rear view mirror, man. i heard her and i stopped hurting so bad, man."
"she fixed me, man.
but yeah I've only known her for two months."
not long enough to hold her in your arms as a friend not a lover
not long enough to listen to her blubber.
not long enough to buy her candy as a surprise.
not long enough to know that she's afraid of the night sky.
not long enough to know her favorite sounds, not long enough to have spun her around dancing so many times that her palms fit yours without any sweat, without any flush.
not long enough to hear her voice tremble with a passion for passion to please an audience
not long enough to hear her sing in perfect reverence
not long enough!
to say you love her.
not long enough because you don't know her soul. don't know what kind of music makes her feel whole, you know not what she does when shes alone. when she is engulfed in a lake of fire and fear, when she cant hear the demons anymore through the tears, when rubbing alcohol is the only thing she fears because she doesn't fear it enough to stop chugging-
only fears that her parents might hear the glugging.
And you said that your favorite part of her was how open she is...
ya don't know her
well enough to say
"man, I'm gonna marry her someday."
"dream girl!" they call.
"dream girl i need you!" they beg.
down to one left arm and one left leg the boys are begging for her puppet show of love
boys are begging for her shadow of a warm hug
its a mosh pit of "get well soon" cards after she breaks their hearts
little do they know, not having known anything at all, that the pretty pretty dream girl dropped you because she doesn't like to fall
doesn't like to trip on her hot pink tips,
doesn't enjoy how crying makes her face sticky so she slaps it instead
doesn't like how people always said to marry daddy
but daddy is too scary for a little girl to wed.
dream-girl is better suited for a traveling marriage bed.
beggers who claim to know no light, who pretend that they have nothing to live for otherwise, pity date, pity rape, pity pit. pity ache.
and then dream girl is too late all of a sudden
to save herself from nightmare man.
that's the day dream girls hot pink hair comes in grey.
