How Do I Deserve You?

Love, Cant find it, Cant live without it....

I woke up the next morning and found my self simileing for the first time in weeks. all that was playing through my head was, 'he kissed me!' i finally felt wanted by someone other than cass. the question was, am i willing to let him enough to let him want me.

"Sisssssy!" a voice screamed before suddenly a small bundle of energy hit me with enough force to make me loose my breath as my sister jumped on my stomach.

"Woah Mia! calm down kiddo!" i said after gapeing like a fish out of water.

"But sissy we will be late for school!" she said giggleing and running out. i got up and got in the shower. i couldnt help looking at my perfectly toned body before jumping in the shower. my legs were long and toned from years of track. and my stomach flat as a pancake. my chest was well filled out. i laughed at myself before jumping under the wonderfull warm water winceing as it hit my neck and then relaxing as it washed the pain away. i got out and finished getting ready for school.

i dropped mia off at school then drove to my own, meeting cass there. i got out and smiled as i saw both cass and zach walking toward me.

"Hey beautiful lady!" zach said reaching me first. i smiled.

"Hey hott guy!" i replied in a teasing manner.

"Hey love birds!" cass joked as she walked up. "i gotta go to class! Bye Love you shi!" she said hugging me. suddenly me and zach were alone.

"Hey i was wondering where we stood, i mean after last night are we boyfriend girlfriend sorta thing?" i asked him cautiously

"I dont know, do you want to be my girlfriend?" he asked

"Y-yes?" i said more as a quesion than an answer.

"if thats what you want then im soo for it!" he said seeming a little excited as he grinned at me. i grinned back and said

"Yeah im your girlfriend." i said likeing the sound of it.

" then you wont mind me doing this!" he said leaning foreward and kissing me passionately.

we sat together in every class kissing in the hall. but i never once said i love you to him. i just couldnt. it killed me to not, but i couldnt put my heart out on the line like that.

me and mia, who i picked up from school that day, went home. i went in before she did because even though his car wasnt there i still was cautious. he was gone so i went out to grab mia but she wasnt in the car! i started to panic until i saw the note in her carseat.

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I have mia. we are going on a little trip. you will never see her again!

                                      love dad

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i burst into tears and ran inside to call the police.