Stuck In The Moment

"I wish we had another time, I wish we had another place. Cause everything we have is stuck in the moment and there's nothing my heart can do, but fight with time and space cause I'm still stuck in the moment with you."

Dear You,

Hey. 

The song above, describes exactly how I feel. I hope you could listen to it, even though it's sung by Justin Bieber. (I do not have anything against him, so don't kill me just yet!) 

You needed someone, and so did I. You were there for me, when I least expected it. That one chat, basically turned my world around. You made me happier. 

As cheesy as it may sound, you made me feel complete. A whole. I know, I'm only 15 and so are you and this maybe a little too young an age to talk about liking a person and everything, but sometimes it happens. Those burning cheeks, hidden smiles during class, those little talks, the lingering thoughts of you - everything.

The way you made me feel about myself was wonderful. A smile never left my face, and my chest had those itty bitty flutters that made me feel warm not only on the outside, but the inside too. My day was filled with thoughts of you, which was admittedly a little distracting. But that just made me fall for you. I didn't think I would, but you proved me wrong. 

In the days we were together, I was........ filled with this unexplainable feeling. I was feeling so joyous, accepted and loved. You were perfect, honstly you are. But me.... I don't know whether I'm good enough for you.

I mean, like right now, you're hurting - because of ME. 

Everything was dandy as could be, but I had to mess things up. Wowie.

And now...... I want you to get over me, so you can reach out to the other girls who love you. I'm just a silly person, with no what-so-ever experience in the fields of 'dating' or such. Get a girl for yourself who loves you, can make you smile and will lend you her heart forever.

Don't worry about me, I'll get over 'us' in my own time.....

Thank you, for making me feel so loved. Thank you for never failing to amuse me. Thank you for the memories we shared, the sweet and the bitter.

And the most important: Thank you for accepting me for who I am.

As for now, I think it's gonna be a while before I can stop thinking about 'us'...... It'll be painful, and so horribly awkward, but I hope that we can still keep in touch, without the  hostility and hidden thoughts. Being a person, it felt so wonderful to be wanted  by somone, and as I said before : I'm really glad that that perosn was YOU.

"Now you don't wanna let go, and I don't wanna let you know that there might be something real between us two, who knew? And we don't wanna fall but we're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy, cause I know you can't love me in here...."