High School Lyfe

ENTRY #1: Thursday, March 17th

Ever since the day I started Freshmen highschool, I always thought that I'd be with my best friends for a long time. Literally...there were tumblr memes saying that by your Senior year you'll end up with only about 3 or below friends. I never believe that until today. I had an amazing day actually.

Nothing bad happened everyone was nice and teachers were lenient. Today was kinda perfect.
Now I am actually trying to lead up why this day actually ended horribly.

My BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD meant the world to me. I also have my squad of friends, that I love with all my heart. I probably don't show it but I do feel this way. It would be like if I ever passed on (R.I.P). They would most likely cry a lot. I honestly do not know if they even feel the same. Some days are just too confusing for me.

I don't even know where I'm going towards in life anymore...
Anyways...high school. Today I recieved a message. Something that didn't really effected my emotions but in terms of being separated someone that I've known for a long time, is very harsh for me. It would be impossible to avoid her. Squad and I were close like family. They are my family. Family/BFF.

Because of one paragraph of a text, risked me a best friend. Who know high school was able to effect friendship. Im basically on probation to be without my BFFL. It's sounds crazy right? So crazy that I cried in a mall, being told that I cannot be with my BFF because of her idiot of a boyfriend.

All this drama started when my ladies started dating. Two very sad drama like relationship (No offense to my friend that might be reading this). I never asked for this. I though I could handle and be strong as I show to my friends. But mentally, I can't. I just can't anymore. I hate the fact that I don't even have my ladies being happy around me. I probably can't go a day being happy. I'm always sad or droopy looking.

(For my readers this is just a sample like drama story, just in case you thought it was real)