Have you ever been up at night, thinking what would I do without that one person? I feel that every night. I always stay up until three AM thinking about him. I can't help that the person I truly love lives across the flipping country.
We met online. I was fifteen when I first got Twitter. There was a guy that I had a major crush on. He has bright blue eyes and dark hair. He was really tall, too. Being the curious person I am, I followed him. Eventually after spamming him, he finally followed me back. At the first chance I got, I messaged him. We ended up talking for two years before he finally asked me out.
I gave him my number and told him to call me sometime. After nervously watching my phone for a couple days, I finally got the call. It was him. The second I heard his deep voice, I fell in love. I couldn't help but blurt out the three words that would change our lives forever.
I love you.
Immediately he said it back. We would message each other every night. I would hopelessly dream of seeing him in real life. It was impossible though, he lived in Maryland and I lived in California. It was beyond my expenses.
We almost broke up a couple times. We were discussing our relationship over the phone. It got to the point that we were both crying.
"How are we ever gonna meet?" He randomly brought up.
"I dunno, but we'll figure it out. I know we will." I told him. I believed in that. He on the other hand, did not.
"God, Sara I love you so much. I just want to hold you. God damnit." He said to me, already choking up.
"I love you too. We will figure this out, I promise." I told him once more.
He told me he had to leave and we ended our phone call. He left me in tears. I wanted to figure the situation out for him.
So here I am, a depressed girl with no one to hold her at night because the one who actually wants to hold her, lives across the country.
